i have some issues too. it seems nothing really helps. for me there are things that help me hide it from the view of others, but noting that soothes my soul. i am trying to just except it is a part of me and i am who i am. it is hard to live sometimes when you remember too much and can not forget even if you try with the entirety of your being. i try to not give that part of me too much energy but no matter how tired or energy deprived that part is it seems to have a very strong will to rise up. so much of happy life is a illusion and once the illusion is broken there does not seem to be any replacing it.