I think I might be retarded ... after years of being made useless I think I might be a tard officially

Looking around at all the amazing stuff people do ... beautiful overpasses with megalithic pillars flowing with these amazing semitrucks hauling huge loads uphill easy ... the street lights , the amazing mfging of led lights to light up the serene landscaping and the crossing roads below with enormous jumbo led screens on huge metal pillars lined with side railings and fences that go on for hundreds of meters ...

Not only non essential... like I dont get jobs like specialist to do the amazing things ... and starting or running a business is not something I'm good at from previous experience and I dont get jobs easy ... without any paperwork of credentials or notable education...

Rather than blaming others for not getting the job or career ... maybe its time to accept - I think I'm now a retard . Like useless and non essential ... and couldn't work if tried to get a job again and their ot hiding useless tards that have a revoked or something drivers licence