My dad died from cancer 23 years ago. It was a blessing and curse to hold him and watch him take his last breaths. The death rattle, purple fingernails and clouded eyes still haunt me.
My mom died 10 years ago on a vent alone in hospital from cancer. I wished to be there, but missed it. Couldn't face going to see her body after she left. Death of a parent sucks. Hospitals suck, but they clean things up. Covid is real and sucks.
Your dad died too soon. I am happy you got him til 84, but it's still hard dealing with death. Peace to you and your family. I hope your mom keeps well, this shiz has a 12 day window some think has closed and then still comes back to get you worse. I pray for health, healing and defeat of this illness, all illness cause cancer is a damn bitch too. Hang in there, focus on life, it goes on. Celebrate vitality.