I just realized I'm a Psychic Vampire and never knew it

For these past few days I've been depressed and sad as hell not understanding why.

For the first time in my life, at 37 years old I started to back track and think why am I depressed and why am I so sad right now. I started to observe my environment and at first I thought it was loneliness but it isn't because I have lots of friends and family then it just hit me just now while I'm alone.

I realized I need to drain someone's energy. I need to drain their energy by hearing about their pain, sorrows, hope and worries. If they come from a fucked up past that's even better, that's more energy to refuel me.

5 days ago I felt a surge of energy and I didn't understand why until today. I felt so alive. Now I realized why. My mom called me to tell me my single fell down and broke his hip. I felt sad hearing it at the time but I couldn't explain why I felt so rejuvenated then but I'm dead now.

Hearing about other people's pains and sorrows refuels me but I really think being in the battlefield and seeing death and the horrors there will rejuvenate me, that's if I don't end up getting shot. I'm 37 years old but I pass for 21 year old, I think it's because I've been draining people's energy without them knowing it.

I've been going job to job not having a career even though every place I've been too I was loved by everyone. I even worked at a place where it was a union plant and there was no chance of getting hired as a permeant but the boss wanted me so badnhe asked to convert me but I turned it down because I was having one of my sad spells over take me.

Now I know where I fit in. Iam going to go to school to get some easy psychology degree so I can be a therapist assistance where they hear ppl with a seriously fucked up past like rape, murder tell them their trauma etc... In a place like that I think I should be able to maintain my youthful looks all the way to 55.