Tower: Jesus' message to myself.

A small circumference tower with large thick blocks is stronger than a wide tower with small thin blocks. So let the goodness in and of you be finite, small, integral, hard to be broken, not wanting to do and be all and expand beyond what you are able and called. You are infinite but your goodness must be finite so as not to be broken through. Jesus is the goodness of your soul. If your goodness is broken through you will doubt, you will be confused, you will hear the enemy, you will disrespect the Lord, even though it is not your want. For worry of not doing all and being all your tower is become enlarged. It is easy for the enemy to break through or find holes of your mind and spirit that you are unaware of. You have tried to conquer the world while Jesus was trying to conquer your soul. Perhaps even for vain glory did I want to do more than I was called to do, and why should I want?! What is required is enough with the Lord, and what we are able to do is only by what is provided by him. It is not anything to the Lord that anyone has done more than another, but who was able to do more was provided the opportunities by him. Would he give a job of lifting heavy stones to an old man? Even if he gave the old man the same job he would not be required to lift the heavy stones but lighter ones. In doing his part every piece will have mattered. Want not for things which are not prepared for you and present themselves to you. Let the Lord determine where and when you go.