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Anonymous Coward User ID: 79338252 United States 04/21/2021 07:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Our rent is increasing by 300, but we each still only pay 615. That is still more affordable than if I were on my own. But I've never felt the want or need to be so alone as I do now. Quoting: eyeDR3 Every warning is being ignored. I do not wish to impose, but I cannot help but feel a rather altruistic need to wake people up just as Noah was told to do. But I'm not specifically in communication with God, at least not in a language type communication form. For me, it has been more in the relics of the teachings of the past, of the moral staples in my life and the scars of past calamity. When Trump was elected, I believe that actually made me lose a bit of focus on myself and on God because it threw me for the loop of unrealistic optimism. Somehow, he was going to fix it. Now we know that just isn't the case. He did so much good, fought tooth and nail, walked through the valley of the shadow of death, but something eventually changed even in him. When expecting martyrdom, in the end I feel like we were actually lead into something far worse... We had expectations and thought the world could turn around, but it was false peace. The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish. I feel it is my duty to spread the word and to wake people up, but as Jesus taught, even mentioning him to others causes them to build their mental walls before me. I was lost in hope, in optimism, but now realize that i am found in an inescapable destruction coming. So what is there to do but to embrace it? I chose to be single and to remain without children for some altruistic and some selfish reasons. I realized the lust and pleasure wouldn't outweigh the burden of a wife and children going through this world, with me as their protector. That makes me both a coward and a savior to having never produced that potential outcome as I can see many of my peers, brothers and sisters included, have. So I sit in this meat suit awaiting an inevitable end, wishing it would come already like sitting through a really bad 3 hour long movie (I'm looking at you Batman vs Superman). And that breaks my heart. Not only for me, but for the wife and children I never had, for all the opportunity I not only gave up but willingly prevented or destroyed. And I believe that breaks God's heart even more. There are other "God's" but none come before the one true creator. They will certainly try, and rather soon at that. But what to do now? Just write? Make books? Print out my photos and everything else that is predominantly digital anymore? Is preservation even necessary if we are to understand and believe what is impending? Meditation, grounding, getting away from it and them all... So lonely yet so ready to just be done with it... We all have problems, you're no different or special. You are just a KOOK who is taking up space with your Debbie Downer rant. Kill yourself for all I care and do us all a big favor pussy! |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 78051284 United States 04/21/2021 07:33 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP you can ignore my posts all you want but you know what I say is true, you can get out of this rut you are in. All you need is to try. Watch some ted talks on youtube if you are confused of what to do. Its kind of funny I just watched some today for a good few hours and then come here and see this thread. This simulation is funny. Anyways good luck. |
Crazy Chicken Lady User ID: 72409546 United States 04/21/2021 07:33 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him. Quoting: eyeDR3 We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever. So... What do we do AC? Seriously, what do we freaking do!? We're on a sinking ship and there are NO life vests or boats for us... My dad says "you just do the best you can with what you have. You can't stop the world." He hasn't given me much advice in my life, but that has stuck with me. We cannot stop the train, we can only brace ourselves for the impact and either hope we rise from the ashes or die immediately. The best stories are told by the survivors. |
SoulEater7 User ID: 79689466 United States 04/21/2021 07:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The world has sped up so fast but is anyone really happy? This is society is phoney and divided. We are all sitting on a powder keg. Anyways I feel alot like you. Just have to do your best and take it day by day. Maybe try dating... eh.. or maybe not. haha |
eyeDR3 (OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I would like to mention though if you rely on god to make a decision for you, then you will never find the answers you seek. I myself do not believe in god, but I imagine if he/she/it did exist you must figure stuff out on your own through free will. I honestly don't understand the people that think magic is gonna fix everything for them. Its not, you must do it yourself. Luckily for everyone we have the internet and so we can just watch videos on youtube or read books to help us get through hard times, or some thread on GLP if that is your go to. Either way don't rely on waiting, take action OP. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78051284 I don't believe you read all of what I had to say, or you are misunderstanding me. I explicitly stated that I understand there will be no intervention and that it is all up to me and free will, but what am I to do? I feel guilt for simply observing the heinous current events, but I'm one tiny speck in an 8 billion strong species. I'll live on until something stops that, I'm not saying otherwise, but what am I to do with this knowledge and understanding? To turn a blind eye is an even worse sin. Seems most are in a loop of mockery. I'll say again though, Jesus said even the very mentioning of him to others would create hate for us. Here we are. :memorybanner: |
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SomeoneSpecific User ID: 80171564 Belgium 04/21/2021 07:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The NWO is coming at us at breakneck speed so you probably don't have much time left to suffer as you do now. Our suffering is connected to Jesus' and vice versa. I think there is a greater picture to all of this which will only make sense in the end. |
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eyeDR3 (OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Perhaps He happens to be calling you out America and out of this world Quoting: Anonymous Coward 80270648 into The Faith in Jesus Christ, but America will burn. see this is the shit I speak of "faith" if you rely on "faith" you will never succeed. What? What the AC said before you isn't wrong though... That's something us Americans have to come to terms with, is that we take nothing with us. Our country will not live forever, and neither will we. We obsess about our nation even over God when it is irrevocably doomed. :memorybanner: |
eyeDR3 (OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:38 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Perhaps He happens to be calling you out of America and out of this world Quoting: Anonymous Coward 80270648 and into The Faith in Jesus Christ, but America will burn. The Called-Out Ones, the ekklesia (Greek), the Church, Believers in Him. Perhaps you have been called for just such a time as this. Yes, you have. Yes, we have. There is Greek in my blood and I've had dreams of the mediterranean, though I've never been there. I understand. Will I be called to that location? Via war first? I wonder... :memorybanner: |
eyeDR3 (OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:39 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Perhaps He happens to be calling you out of America and out of this world Quoting: Anonymous Coward 80270648 and into The Faith in Jesus Christ, but America will burn. The Called-Out Ones, the ekklesia (Greek), the Church, Believers in Him. Perhaps you have been called for just such a time as this. Yes, you have. Yes, we have. And that is the ultimate loneliness. I could only imagine the hurt felt by a parent or spouse who must witness their own lead astray... :memorybanner: |
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eyeDR3 (OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:40 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Our rent is increasing by 300, but we each still only pay 615. That is still more affordable than if I were on my own. But I've never felt the want or need to be so alone as I do now. Quoting: eyeDR3 Every warning is being ignored. I do not wish to impose, but I cannot help but feel a rather altruistic need to wake people up just as Noah was told to do. But I'm not specifically in communication with God, at least not in a language type communication form. For me, it has been more in the relics of the teachings of the past, of the moral staples in my life and the scars of past calamity. When Trump was elected, I believe that actually made me lose a bit of focus on myself and on God because it threw me for the loop of unrealistic optimism. Somehow, he was going to fix it. Now we know that just isn't the case. He did so much good, fought tooth and nail, walked through the valley of the shadow of death, but something eventually changed even in him. When expecting martyrdom, in the end I feel like we were actually lead into something far worse... We had expectations and thought the world could turn around, but it was false peace. The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish. I feel it is my duty to spread the word and to wake people up, but as Jesus taught, even mentioning him to others causes them to build their mental walls before me. I was lost in hope, in optimism, but now realize that i am found in an inescapable destruction coming. So what is there to do but to embrace it? I chose to be single and to remain without children for some altruistic and some selfish reasons. I realized the lust and pleasure wouldn't outweigh the burden of a wife and children going through this world, with me as their protector. That makes me both a coward and a savior to having never produced that potential outcome as I can see many of my peers, brothers and sisters included, have. So I sit in this meat suit awaiting an inevitable end, wishing it would come already like sitting through a really bad 3 hour long movie (I'm looking at you Batman vs Superman). And that breaks my heart. Not only for me, but for the wife and children I never had, for all the opportunity I not only gave up but willingly prevented or destroyed. And I believe that breaks God's heart even more. There are other "God's" but none come before the one true creator. They will certainly try, and rather soon at that. But what to do now? Just write? Make books? Print out my photos and everything else that is predominantly digital anymore? Is preservation even necessary if we are to understand and believe what is impending? Meditation, grounding, getting away from it and them all... So lonely yet so ready to just be done with it... We all have problems, you're no different or special. You are just a KOOK who is taking up space with your Debbie Downer rant. Kill yourself for all I care and do us all a big favor pussy! I forgive you. That was truly evil. :memorybanner: |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 78051284 United States 04/21/2021 07:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I would like to mention though if you rely on god to make a decision for you, then you will never find the answers you seek. I myself do not believe in god, but I imagine if he/she/it did exist you must figure stuff out on your own through free will. I honestly don't understand the people that think magic is gonna fix everything for them. Its not, you must do it yourself. Luckily for everyone we have the internet and so we can just watch videos on youtube or read books to help us get through hard times, or some thread on GLP if that is your go to. Either way don't rely on waiting, take action OP. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78051284 I don't believe you read all of what I had to say, or you are misunderstanding me. I explicitly stated that I understand there will be no intervention and that it is all up to me and free will, but what am I to do? I feel guilt for simply observing the heinous current events, but I'm one tiny speck in an 8 billion strong species. I'll live on until something stops that, I'm not saying otherwise, but what am I to do with this knowledge and understanding? To turn a blind eye is an even worse sin. Seems most are in a loop of mockery. I'll say again though, Jesus said even the very mentioning of him to others would create hate for us. Here we are. Let me explain something to you. Everyone is in their own story. You, me, everyone in this thread. That being said, treat life like a movie. If you want action, then go join the army, or act in a movie about the army. If you want love, act like you see in a movie, etc. Life imitates film because thats all life really is. Feeling guilty for the other 8 billion people out there when they don't for you is simply not what this life is intended for. This life is made for you, just as its made for me. I honestly hate the whole "omg everyones turning a blind eye" "its sin!" its really not, this world was never meant to have this many people in it, but here we are. By the way I do not hate you, nor do I hate anyone on this site for believing in imaginary friends. I get it people need to believe to continue living, but stop worrying about everyone. Worry about yourself. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 80270648 United States 04/21/2021 07:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I think almost everyone is coming to agree that it all feels like something very big and like never before is beginning to sweep the globe. I really believe we are right on the edge of the almost unthinkable, the incomprehensible, the most stupefying prospect of the commencement of the Apocalypse the Revelation, the Tribulation for real |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 80098015 United States 04/21/2021 07:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | First off , what you are feeling is 100% normal , that whole about to be 30 and wondering your true meaning is something everyone goes through and will pass . Second off, God only helps those that help themselves . The World is a beautiful place you just have to allow yourself to see it ... God bless you |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 78051284 United States 04/21/2021 07:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | High Concentrate THC Quoting: Anonymous Coward 80261088 Porn Have a pizza delivered Jerk off all over yourself three or four times and then take a bath and go to bed. Repeat the next day. It's a good life I go to work once in a while as well. SIN! no I'm kidding, do what you want bro, if that's what truly makes you happy. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 73723224 United States 04/21/2021 07:44 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You are never alone. The almighty is clearly with you. The lifestream is surrounding you. You have the responsibility and intentions about you from your waiting other portion. That said, if G-d notices you, you are subject to be trolled, as this steering and trolling can occur from time to time when necessary, and don’t get me started on course correction.the favorites have it even harder. G-d prefers making gems using pressure after all. |
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Mr.Sunshine User ID: 14839880 United States 04/21/2021 07:44 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP you seem to be on a very unfortunate path where you will reach old age and know that you failed to plan properly. You've barely any time at your age to re-direct your life. I am in my 70's. Revolutionaries and the vain will keep dazzling subsequent generations but you must earn a living unless a big inheritance awaits. Forget all the crap. Get to work. Maybe run a business. Ten years from now, you need to own a place and have some accomplishments & investments to your credit. Take it or leave it. At my age, seen it all. signatures so often represent submission to criminal authority, so I am averse to signatures in any designation. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 77256733 United States 04/21/2021 07:45 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | God bless you, OP. God bless us all but we are due our judgement, I feel it is coming soon too. Don't isolate, spread the Good News of our Savior, Jesus. You don't need a family to do that. Eternity is a long time, hell is real. Let's spread the WORD together! |
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eyeDR3 (OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:46 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP you can ignore my posts all you want but you know what I say is true, you can get out of this rut you are in. All you need is to try. Watch some ted talks on youtube if you are confused of what to do. Its kind of funny I just watched some today for a good few hours and then come here and see this thread. This simulation is funny. Anyways good luck. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 78051284 I'm sure I responded to you? But I can say no amount of those videos are just going to turn me around. My mind isn't that easily swayed. No therapist, no self help video. That's what the younguns today call "hopium". You get your dopamine and serotonin rush, then the fall and the recovery. That's worse to me than just accepting the truth. We are corrupt and in an existential reckoning. Unlike most I can't just fake being happy until I believe it. Last Edited by eyeDR3 on 04/21/2021 07:46 PM :memorybanner: |
Auburnite User ID: 23751121 United States 04/21/2021 07:46 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Very truthful and encouraging words from the OP. Well stated. You obviously have your head screwed on tight the right way. I encourage you to never give up on your beliefs or your drive. You are 30 years my junior and it is a charm to hear the youth of today speak like you do. Much love... |
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