Never felt so alone, nor have I ever wanted to be so...

You sound very down OP. You are still young enough to get married and have children.

Nope. The Tribulation is not in any way based on America.

"Christ" ain't gonna do jack sh!t for you, look at the state of the world, which is full of people praying to christ 24/7...where are the results?!?

Thats a lot to chew on.

I imagine the 9 yr olds of today, the smart ones anyways, are going to look back on 2020 & coronavirus much as you look back on 2001 & 9/11.....with scarring & irreversible trauma.

And their communist indoctrination will be mandatory & complete.

Sad state of affairs for sure.

what to feel alone how bout sailing into the middle of the pacific ocean by your self of corse and just sit there and look up at the stars at night a truly scary but a beautiful experience.

Hi all, I just wanted to point out that if anyone is struggling, whether it be because of the pandemic, family, friends, loneliness, or just some general depression, it is possible to find the help needed to continue :)

Seek out a therapist who can help you talk through your feelings and thoughts. My fiancee had troubled thoughts but having weekly therapy appointments has completely changed her for the better and made her a stronger, more capable woman.

If you believe in God then that's wonderful, but understand that God has also put into place physical, tangible measures by which you can also seek assistance, whether that be doctors for physical ailments or therapists for emotional or mental ailments.

Hope y'all have a good rest of your week!

Our rent is increasing by 300, but we each still only pay 615. That is still more affordable than if I were on my own. But I've never felt the want or need to be so alone as I do now.

Every warning is being ignored. I do not wish to impose, but I cannot help but feel a rather altruistic need to wake people up just as Noah was told to do.

But I'm not specifically in communication with God, at least not in a language type communication form.

For me, it has been more in the relics of the teachings of the past, of the moral staples in my life and the scars of past calamity.

When Trump was elected, I believe that actually made me lose a bit of focus on myself and on God because it threw me for the loop of unrealistic optimism.

Somehow, he was going to fix it.

Now we know that just isn't the case.

He did so much good, fought tooth and nail, walked through the valley of the shadow of death, but something eventually changed even in him. When expecting martyrdom, in the end I feel like we were actually lead into something far worse...

We had expectations and thought the world could turn around, but it was false peace.

The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish.

I feel it is my duty to spread the word and to wake people up, but as Jesus taught, even mentioning him to others causes them to build their mental walls before me.

I was lost in hope, in optimism, but now realize that i am found in an inescapable destruction coming.

So what is there to do but to embrace it?

I chose to be single and to remain without children for some altruistic and some selfish reasons. I realized the lust and pleasure wouldn't outweigh the burden of a wife and children going through this world, with me as their protector. That makes me both a coward and a savior to having never produced that potential outcome as I can see many of my peers, brothers and sisters included, have.

So I sit in this meat suit awaiting an inevitable end, wishing it would come already like sitting through a really bad 3 hour long movie (I'm looking at you Batman vs Superman).

And that breaks my heart. Not only for me, but for the wife and children I never had, for all the opportunity I not only gave up but willingly prevented or destroyed.

And I believe that breaks God's heart even more.

There are other "God's" but none come before the one true creator.

They will certainly try, and rather soon at that.

But what to do now?

Just write? Make books? Print out my photos and everything else that is predominantly digital anymore? Is preservation even necessary if we are to understand and believe what is impending?

Meditation, grounding, getting away from it and them all... So lonely yet so ready to just be done with it...

I lost everything and am alone in life, I'm in my early 60s. I have money and it matters little, I can't even find people to help me spend it.

the difference is your are still very young and can rebuild. My suggestion to you is that you immediately begin trying to build any relationships. Start now it is far from to late for a 29 year old. Recontact anyone from high school or college or anyone you loved or clicked with. Work to maintain your relationships, and don't forsake people. Start now to build new ones, and really work at it. Join clubs, get outside, start a social calendar, meet people to eat meals with. Start a group of guys that Bowl or play cards or bike or just walk once a week or month.

I am now alone because my grief and rage push everyone away. People don't generally try hard enough to get through to a depressed or grieving person. They respond to the first rejection and walk away.

It far from over for a 29 year old. If you have to try an SSRI. And build medical relationships now as well, try to find a Doctor or Drs. your own age you have a real relationship with that can build over decades and help take care of you. I've been bounced around all my life and currently have no support and lost my Dr. again during 2020. They want anyone over 60 dead, so life is just a jumble of grief and loss and suicidal feelings.

Learn now not to be the turd in the punch bowl everywhere. Fake it. Take Anti depressants. Do whatever to build a life, don't let it fade away in front of the PC like I did the past 20 years, posting on GLP and the Velvet Rope and being summarily ignored and banned until I wanted to die. Go where there are good people and bond with them. Get out and live while you are young. Now in my early 60s, I see almost no reason to go on.

Who in their right mind would want to bring innocent children into this depraved world? It's getting more like Hell every day.


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The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him.

We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever.

That is so much easier said than done for me.

I've tried and tried again.

It's inescapable. I could just tune out of everything but that still doesn't change the outcome.

I know, I know. So what?

I get it, trust me.

But I am very confident in saying my best days are WAAAAY behind me, and I appreciate them all the same.

But I'm just very impatiently awaiting the escape.

Who in their right mind would want to bring innocent children into this depraved world? It's getting more like Hell every day.


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OP like you said Give it up to God. Jesus has risen to save you. I know tough times along with the other posters. I have been alone for 3 years. My wife passed 3 years ago. I was 38.

Longest I have been on my own. I needed this time to recalibrate my mind. Nothing is final. no story is over till you go to be with God.

Just keep your faith and do not give up.

WELL SAID...I COULDN'T AGREE MORE!