Never felt so alone, nor have I ever wanted to be so...

"Christ" ain't gonna do jack sh!t for you, look at the state of the world, which is full of people praying to christ 24/7...where are the results?!?

I lost everything and am alone in life, I'm in my early 60s. I have money and it matters little, I can't even find people to help me spend it.

the difference is your are still very young and can rebuild. My suggestion to you is that you immediately begin trying to build any relationships. Start now it is far from to late for a 29 year old. Recontact anyone from high school or college or anyone you loved or clicked with. Work to maintain your relationships, and don't forsake people. Start now to build new ones, and really work at it. Join clubs, get outside, start a social calendar, meet people to eat meals with. Start a group of guys that Bowl or play cards or bike or just walk once a week or month.

I am now alone because my grief and rage push everyone away. People don't generally try hard enough to get through to a depressed or grieving person. They respond to the first rejection and walk away.

It far from over for a 29 year old. If you have to try an SSRI. And build medical relationships now as well, try to find a Doctor or Drs. your own age you have a real relationship with that can build over decades and help take care of you. I've been bounced around all my life and currently have no support and lost my Dr. again during 2020. They want anyone over 60 dead, so life is just a jumble of grief and loss and suicidal feelings.

Learn now not to be the turd in the punch bowl everywhere. Fake it. Take Anti depressants. Do whatever to build a life, don't let it fade away in front of the PC like I did the past 20 years, posting on GLP and the Velvet Rope and being summarily ignored and banned until I wanted to die. Go where there are good people and bond with them. Get out and live while you are young. Now in my early 60s, I see almost no reason to go on.

The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him.

We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever.

Please read this for maybe you feel similarly to me and we can learn together.

I am nearly 29 years old. I am responsible for myself, my decisions and surroundings.

Let me just start by stating those facts.

Now let me explain where I've seen this life go, and where it is heading...

Born in 1992, there were race riots actively occurring from the moment I entered the world. Black Hawk Down. Hurricane Andrew.

America was already all but lost, fallen into the exact malicious hands warned about by our founders, John F Kennedy and even Ronald Reagan. We had gone from George HW Bush to Bill Clinton, the very beginning of the snowball of effects that would come for the next almost 30 years.

As a child, I recall the wonder of the coming technological era. It was in everything. Every form of media, art, music, clothing... Everyone was for the most part embracing and in awe of novelty. Very similar to the 80's, the 90's were the last bastion of the American dream, for better or worse.

It was a wonderful time for me, even though in reality, very bad things were happening in the world already and in my own life. My youth allowed me to remain mostly ignorant of the world. I wasn't yet hardened and desensitized.

The music was fantastic, videogames went from 8 to 16, to 32 and even 64 bit in very short order, from 2D to 3D, tv was captivating, malls weren't just shops, there were still heavily used arcades, cars were badass still, most of our time was spent outside... I could go on and on and on but basically what I'm saying is my childhood, whilst extremely turbulent, I am very lucky to say took place in a relatively novel, prosperous and happy time.

Then, in 2001, 911 happened.

I can't lie... I'm still traumatized by that day, like I've never moved past the shock and ongoing implications ever since.

In September, it has been 20 years.

When it occurred, I was 9 years old.
I remember it like it was yesterday.

From that event forward, it has been an ever quickening spiral into despair and destruction.

I am very lucky to have had moral posts in my life. They are all mostly deceased by now, but they had their hand in forming who I am today.

I don't want this to be all about me, so I'll hurry it along to where we are now.

When I graduated high school, with honors and with an already accepted application to several major universities, something was telling me to stay far away. I purposely chose a smaller university, Purdue, and even switched to IU after my first semester. I could have gone to almost any ivy league school even, if not for monetary restrictions (and I'm white). Something was telling me to stay away.

I recently looked back at my days in University and I was disgusted and rather flabbergasted. I was being pushed hard into marxism and extremism without even the slightest inclination. I am truly appalled by the amount of social justice and marxism that was being pushed then, but that brings us forward...

I feel as if I've escaped hell already and now must feel pain and sorrow as punishment for what my people have done and have ALLOWED to be done. I had a true Awakening, an aha moment in which I realized it would be foolish to turn a bind eye to the coming destruction and to carry about things as usual. To have false optimism only to be let down.

Not that it is my own doing, atonement comes through true repentance and the letting go of the push in this world.

I've no friends. No money. Nothing to my name but some "artifacts" and a dog I love very much. My cousin means a lot to me and he and I for the past nearly 10 years have helped to build each other up and stayed awake... But there comes a time for a fork in the road, where everyone makes their decisions and you cannot stop them, just as you would not like for them to infringe on you.

What we've made work we are far beyond the halfway point of. He has decided to marry and no matter what I feel of that situation, he has to make his own decisions about that one and I wish him the best of luck. I can see it may take heart break, divorce and such for him to come to the level of wisdom I have via other experiences. But, that's on him.

Which brings me to today.

Please read this for maybe you feel similarly to me and we can learn together.

I am nearly 29 years old. I am responsible for myself, my decisions and surroundings.

Let me just start by stating those facts.

Now let me explain where I've seen this life go, and where it is heading...

Born in 1992, there were race riots actively occurring from the moment I entered the world. Black Hawk Down. Hurricane Andrew.

America was already all but lost, fallen into the exact malicious hands warned about by our founders, John F Kennedy and even Ronald Reagan. We had gone from George HW Bush to Bill Clinton, the very beginning of the snowball of effects that would come for the next almost 30 years.

As a child, I recall the wonder of the coming technological era. It was in everything. Every form of media, art, music, clothing... Everyone was for the most part embracing and in awe of novelty. Very similar to the 80's, the 90's were the last bastion of the American dream, for better or worse.

It was a wonderful time for me, even though in reality, very bad things were happening in the world already and in my own life. My youth allowed me to remain mostly ignorant of the world. I wasn't yet hardened and desensitized.

The music was fantastic, videogames went from 8 to 16, to 32 and even 64 bit in very short order, from 2D to 3D, tv was captivating, malls weren't just shops, there were still heavily used arcades, cars were badass still, most of our time was spent outside... I could go on and on and on but basically what I'm saying is my childhood, whilst extremely turbulent, I am very lucky to say took place in a relatively novel, prosperous and happy time.

Then, in 2001, 911 happened.

I can't lie... I'm still traumatized by that day, like I've never moved past the shock and ongoing implications ever since.

In September, it has been 20 years.

When it occurred, I was 9 years old.
I remember it like it was yesterday.

From that event forward, it has been an ever quickening spiral into despair and destruction.

I am very lucky to have had moral posts in my life. They are all mostly deceased by now, but they had their hand in forming who I am today.

I don't want this to be all about me, so I'll hurry it along to where we are now.

When I graduated high school, with honors and with an already accepted application to several major universities, something was telling me to stay far away. I purposely chose a smaller university, Purdue, and even switched to IU after my first semester. I could have gone to almost any ivy league school even, if not for monetary restrictions (and I'm white). Something was telling me to stay away.

I recently looked back at my days in University and I was disgusted and rather flabbergasted. I was being pushed hard into marxism and extremism without even the slightest inclination. I am truly appalled by the amount of social justice and marxism that was being pushed then, but that brings us forward...

I feel as if I've escaped hell already and now must feel pain and sorrow as punishment for what my people have done and have ALLOWED to be done. I had a true Awakening, an aha moment in which I realized it would be foolish to turn a bind eye to the coming destruction and to carry about things as usual. To have false optimism only to be let down.

Not that it is my own doing, atonement comes through true repentance and the letting go of the push in this world.

I've no friends. No money. Nothing to my name but some "artifacts" and a dog I love very much. My cousin means a lot to me and he and I for the past nearly 10 years have helped to build each other up and stayed awake... But there comes a time for a fork in the road, where everyone makes their decisions and you cannot stop them, just as you would not like for them to infringe on you.

What we've made work we are far beyond the halfway point of. He has decided to marry and no matter what I feel of that situation, he has to make his own decisions about that one and I wish him the best of luck. I can see it may take heart break, divorce and such for him to come to the level of wisdom I have via other experiences. But, that's on him.

Which brings me to today.

So... What do we do AC?

Seriously, what do we freaking do!?

We're on a sinking ship and there are NO life vests or boats for us...

you think god cares

Brother. The answer you are seeking requires you to be very open minded. It is found in The Holy Quran. Here are some verses to give you an idea.


1) “And Allah would not punish them while they seek forgiveness” [Quran 8:33]

2) “He created the heavens and earth in truth and formed you and perfected your forms; and to Him is the [final] destination” [Quran 64:3]

3) “And whoever relies upon Allah – then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent” [Quran 65:3]

4) “My mercy encompasses all things” [Quran 7:156]

5) “The truth is from your Lord, so do not be among the doubters” [Quran 3:60]

6) “Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear” [Quran 2:286]

7) “So verily, with the hardship, there is relief. Verily, with the hardship, there is relief” [Quran 94:5-6]

8) “Do what is beautiful. Allah loves those who do what is beautiful” [Quran 2:195]

9) “The people will depart separated [into categories] to be shown [the result of] their deeds. So whoever does an atom’s weight of good will see it” [Quran 99:6-7]

10) “Say, ‘O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful'” [Quran 39:53]

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I suggest you start by reading the chapters where these verses are from and learn the story behind them. Trust me, it will be an Eye Opener if the truth is what you seek.

Second worst advice of the thread ^^^

I repent. I repent. I repent!

Please, Lord save me from this.

Oh the crucifixion has never made more sense than now.

The Tribulation, like the Bible, is about Israel.

America is not even clearly referenced in the Bible.

I've spent my entire life studying the Bible.

I'm done arguing.

The Tribulation, like the Bible, is about Israel.

America is not even clearly referenced in the Bible.

I've spent my entire life studying the Bible.

I'm done arguing.

I will.

Thank you so much.

And thanks mostly for your truly wise words. Again, another perspective that really helps put me at ease.

That's what I meant by my best years being behind me, and that is okay. I know I had it much better than a lot of people in this world.

Still today, I have what I need.

Some people don't have the luxury of speaking to the entire world as we do...

Which brings me to today.

So... What do we do AC?

Seriously, what do we freaking do!?

We're on a sinking ship and there are NO life vests or boats for us...