Living in state of fear every day, so stressed out

I’ve followed “conspiracies” for years with great interest. But wow it is a totally different story when they come to life and are in your face 24/7. I wake up every day with major anxiety fearful of what’s coming next. Every day it gets worse and worse - vax mandates for active duty forces, can’t go to restaurants/gyms etc in major cities like NY & LA. I feel it in my everyday life with lib friends who got the vax and tell me people like me are the cause of the variants and I’m being selfish and it’s not just my health, it’s everybody’s. To top it off my spouse is on the opposite side of me. My entire family & friends are vaxxed except me. I feel very alone. And I think what makes this a million times worse is that I have a young child and I’m terrified when this vax comes available for his age. They’re coming for all of us. There’s no way I’m getting this thing and I don’t want my child getting it, but what does that mean in reality? I might need the vax to get a paycheck, food shop, etc. Will we not be allowed in hospitals or doctor offices? My child will probably not be allowed around other kids for play dates etc or even allowed in school. Our school district is split down the middle with opinions on vaccines and masks and people are at each other’s throats. I pray every day, but I feel this incredible feeling of doom coming and feel like there’s no escape. What the hell are we all supposed to do? I know I’m not alone in feeling this way. Sorry for the depressing post lol.