Please help me. My wife just divorced me after 23 years of marriage and I don't know what to do next.

She hates me because of my conspiracy beliefs and because I wont get vaxxed. She became very uncaring after she got vaxxed in March. She also just started hormones after a hysterectomy and she is acting like a teenager at 50 years old. New car, new clothes, new jewelry. I'm not the ideal husband but I was a great father to our child and never cheated. I think she did once and I just couldn't let it go. I have $120,000 and a car to my name. No job. Can't lift anything slightly heavy due to hernia. Moving to an overpriced apt. tomorrow.

She told her friends I'm a useless narcissist and trash. I saw her text it.

I am so tired of Oklahoma. I really want to move to California even though that is absolutely insane right now.
Maybe a small town like San Luis Obispo? I can do radio if I can find a gig.

But then my 20 year old kid would have to choose.

I don't know what to do.

I'm sick with the thought that she is going to be having sex with another man someday soon. Her friends can't wait to hook her up. They hate me.

I can't stand that I've lost my family.

I am in a perpetual state of trauma.

I should have been nicer to her and done more with her and shut up about conspiracies around her. She can be annoying but damn this is so much worse.

Ive never cried this much in my life.