OMG...I wish I would have spent it alone. I'm one of those "sandwich generation" guys, like some my age, ended up completely single for life with no children. Not by choice. Younger men in their 20s have a much easier time dating girls because the population size is much larger in that age group. Back when I was that age, it was damn near impossible to find a girlfriend. I have several guy-friends my age, all decent looking employed men that never married and have no kids because they just couldn't find anyone either. I suffered the same fate. So I have to suffer the embarrassment of being a fatherless single man in life.

I have a family with lower IQs. Went to my old parent's house for Thanksgiving. My father can only talk about sports or about how some 16 year old kid in the metro area is an all-state basketball player and is 6'9'' and blah blah. I'm like "who fucking cares about some god damn kid you don't even personally know. Like who fucking cares!!!!!". My father was only a high school teacher like my sister, therefore they know zilch about the adult corporate world. All they can talk about is other 15 year old kids at my sister's high school she teaches at. It's so fucking bizarre. He views my sister like his "son" because she looks like him and I look like my mother. It's nothing but low IQ stupidity the whole time.

My divorced sister with a nasty fake superficial attitude (her husband just could not stand her anymore and divorced her) comes over with her ungroomed dog and with unclipped nails and turns it loose. It runs over to my 92 year old great aunt and lacerates her leg with its nails. BLOOD ALL OVER THE FLOOR. How fucking irresponsible and stupid can someone be to turn a dog loose on a 92 year old lady. They're running around looking for gauze pads and tape and cleaning blood off my great aunt. My stupid low IQ sister. I just was looking at the chaotic situation thinking how irresponsible she is....and she is 50 years old. She doesn't realize that the situation could turn into a chronic wound or infection because my great aunt is 92 years old and people that age don't heal as easily. She just went back to sit down, played with her phone, and started talking about how other boys in her high school she teaches at were losers and how her kid is cool. I'm just rolling my eyes in complete disbelief.

Then my sister asked me if I was still eating keto because some guy she knows that teaches at her high school does and he's a weirdo and a loser because he never married and has no kids. I just looked at her in disbelief. "Ummm...I have no kids, so you're saying I'm a weirdo and a loser??" Gee thanks.

Aside from that, they all just ignored me and talked amongst themselves about stupid shit and about high school sports. Then my father asks me to buy my sister's kid a weight set $$$$ for Christmas. Excuse me?? He's not my fucking kid and I'm not spending that much money on a kid that has been completely thankless every damn Christmas I spent tons of money on him. My uncles only gave me $5 on Christmas when I was a kid and it stopped by the time I was 12. I guess I'm only good enough to talk to when my father wants me to spend money on his daughter and her son that has to be forced to say 'thank you' every time he's given something. Unbelievable. I was in such disbelief today.

I just jumped in my car and took off. I couldn't take it anymore. I definitely wish I could have spent Thanksgiving alone. Sure, I really wish I had a wife and kids and could have that family gathering, but I didn't get to have that in life. It's been tough every year living that reality. If I had a son, no matter who he turned out to be or how different he was from me, I'd always treat him as the flagship representative of the family. I totally did not expect Thanksgiving to be like this. I was just flat out ignored and regarded as "weird loser fatherless man" while I sat and ate turkey. That was my Thanksgiving.