I admitted I was playing the victim. I was a sissy.

I decided to become a trucker. Truckers don't play victim. I am learning from local commercial drivers how not to play victim. Don't worry, they will teach you. Its embarrassing at times.

I said local not OTR because local truckers are family based and give you their uncensored honest feedback, if you can take it. Remember, to them you are a sissy. Keep trying is all you have to do. And learn to drive well.

Its not an easy path to manhood, but its even harder living life playing the victim.

You will feel proud of yourself for trying. And you will be respected. And have a career.

There are many jobs driving: courier, septic pumping truck, auto parts delivery. Not all of them require a commercial licence. Start small with a regular driving licence and watch for ways to improve your driving and yourself. They will help you.