OP, what you do now is literally spend 15 -20 minutes saying out loud what you are thankful for.

Being thankful is like a luck magnet. Seriously.

Just as bitching, moaning and complaining seems to attract bad luck.

Then after saying what you're thankful, like the sunset, the stars, your eyesight, your ability to walk, or perceive this or some talent you have...

Then you start declaring out loud how you want you life to be and FEEL IT as if it is reality now.

Then lay out a strategic plan of action.

And work your ass off to achieve it.