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Anonymous Coward User ID: 23196659 United States 04/30/2022 05:15 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thanks for sharing this part of your life story. You certainly have come a long way from wanting to end it all by yourself to letting others in to the real you. Perhaps your story will positively impact someone else…you never really know. I was kind of hoping that you might have had some sort of NDE or OBE to go along with what you’ve shared, though most people don’t have any such recollection. Take care. |
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Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 79953351 United States 04/30/2022 05:18 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thanks for sharing this part of your life story. You certainly have come a long way from wanting to end it all by yourself to letting others in to the real you. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 23196659 Perhaps your story will positively impact someone else…you never really know. I was kind of hoping that you might have had some sort of NDE or OBE to go along with what you’ve shared, though most people don’t have any such recollection. Take care. No NDE, but maybe this will help and bless you. How is this possible, why am I alive? What does God think of me now? First, I live a life of backslidden, sin, and then try to kill myself! Is He, now mad at me, hate me, what does He think now? Every day my family has to clean my wound, a hole 3-4 inches into my head, opens up, and needs daily care, until it gets fixed and heals completely. Then one day... I'm all alone. They all go shopping, and also need a break, from the intensity of the situation. As I'm sitting at the table, I look outside, and see the rain drops falling to the ground. THEN... I hear His voice. He says "Rod, why do you believe what you believe and who taught you". I say "Lord I don't know, maybe I just picked up things on the way, as time went by". He says "Do you think TRUTH, goes from THE MIND of one man, and into the mind of another"? I said "No Lord. I believe TRUTH is REVEALED". He says "Do you remember the story of David, on his rooftop" "Yes, Lord I remember". "Do you remember what David wanted to do, and what I told him". "Yes Lord, he wanted to build you a house". "And I said NO". "But another would build my house". "He would have a son" Rod "I don't want you to ever put your sin above my love and grace for you. Don't ever do it again"! "IT IS NOT YOUR JOB, TO CHANGE YOURSELF, that is MY JOB; I am the farmer, you are the vine, I am the shepherd, you are the sheep. WHEN I want to change something in your life, I will bring it to your attention, and you JUST AGREE WITH ME"... "You just rest." |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 81715005 Sweden 04/30/2022 05:19 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wether you have a million dollars or minus in your account, your family will always need you. Its more important than money. Life can seem harsh at points. But what would life be without its ups and downs? Wish you the best man. |
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Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 79953351 United States 04/30/2022 05:23 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | yea so i guess it really is OP's story. Quoting: T-Man what are things like now, 15 years later?! specially with your family? Well things are good. and my life has really changed. Family stuck with me through it all. At first I was pretty upset, I would lay in that hospital bed and ask "How is this possible", I don't want to go thru this, and also put my family thru this, I was suppose to die. How am I still alive for God's sake I loaded the thing with d-ought and went strait on, my head should be on the ground in the woods, separate from my body.... This took a while to work thru, until I became happy again, to be alive. |
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BFD User ID: 78133585 United States 04/30/2022 05:27 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I better be because man the physical pain I have endured was tough, not to mention everything else If you could go back and talk to yourself before you did it, what would you say? I get that it's a moot point now but still, could be helpful for other people to hear. Last Edited by BFD on 04/30/2022 05:28 AM INFJ/Conservative Artist |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 79953351 United States 04/30/2022 05:27 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wether you have a million dollars or minus in your account, your family will always need you. Its more important than money. Life can seem harsh at points. But what would life be without its ups and downs? Wish you the best man. Thank You and yes money isn't everything, but I really want to get that surgery so I can see good and read again. So after all these years my only thought was maybe gofundme can help |
Brit Perspective User ID: 82423440 United Kingdom 04/30/2022 05:28 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I better be because man the physical pain I have endured was tough, not to mention everything else If you could go back and talk to yourself before you did it, what would you say? You done goofed, and were given another chance, so don't be done goofing again The chariots of God are tens of thousands, and thousands of thousands. |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 79953351 United States 04/30/2022 05:29 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I better be because man the physical pain I have endured was tough, not to mention everything else If you could go back and talk to yourself before you did it, what would you say? WOW!!!! Uhhh... So much, so many things. BUT IF I could go back to THAT day, the day I walked into the woods, just that day, then I would say "Don't push that trigger". |
T-Man Entitled title User ID: 78270630 Netherlands 04/30/2022 05:30 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | yea so i guess it really is OP's story. Quoting: T-Man what are things like now, 15 years later?! specially with your family? Well things are good. and my life has really changed. Family stuck with me through it all. At first I was pretty upset, I would lay in that hospital bed and ask "How is this possible", I don't want to go thru this, and also put my family thru this, I was suppose to die. How am I still alive for God's sake I loaded the thing with d-ought and went strait on, my head should be on the ground in the woods, separate from my body.... This took a while to work thru, until I became happy again, to be alive. I'm happy they did!! |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 79953351 United States 04/30/2022 05:30 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I better be because man the physical pain I have endured was tough, not to mention everything else If you could go back and talk to yourself before you did it, what would you say? You done goofed, and were given another chance, so don't be done goofing again Yes I know, its all on me. I get that, and I agree |
Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 79953351 United States 04/30/2022 05:33 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | yea so i guess it really is OP's story. Quoting: T-Man what are things like now, 15 years later?! specially with your family? Well things are good. and my life has really changed. Family stuck with me through it all. At first I was pretty upset, I would lay in that hospital bed and ask "How is this possible", I don't want to go thru this, and also put my family thru this, I was suppose to die. How am I still alive for God's sake I loaded the thing with d-ought and went strait on, my head should be on the ground in the woods, separate from my body.... This took a while to work thru, until I became happy again, to be alive. I'm happy they did!! :snooplove: Thanks me too.....Lots of women, leave men for doing stuff like this....But losing my job, that was the tuff part that drove me to say. I'm done. |
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LifeIsCalling User ID: 80923021 India 04/30/2022 05:58 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wether you have a million dollars or minus in your account, your family will always need you. Its more important than money. Life can seem harsh at points. But what would life be without its ups and downs? Wish you the best man. Thank You and yes money isn't everything, but I really want to get that surgery so I can see good and read again. So after all these years my only thought was maybe gofundme can help > You should have been in heaven at peace but things didnt work your way so life has to keep going on. > Help will come all the way only if you seek it. > Even if it is hard to forget the past there is nothing you can do to change it. What you can best do is the way how you look towards life. that being said.... never ever regret the decision you have taken in the past and keep going. > Always be gratitude towards the people who have helped you in tough times > I am not sure if we are in a simulation, if this world is illusion or maya...Whatever death will come a day, Till then go with the play "It's all in your mind" "In the end, Nothing matters" |
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