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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge

 
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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge
Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge.

I habe no clue what caused me to be reminded of what happebed 23 years ago, but now that Im thinking about it, it infuriates me how I should have caused harm on him but I didnt.

I was a freshman in highschool 23 years ago, I was 14-15 standing at the vending machine. I was probably 5'5 at the time. A guy who was like 6'1 with his gf stood right behind me.

It was like I was able to read his mind, I cant explain it but i felt he was thinking, "im going to impress my girlfriend by making her laugh from me picking on this short kid."

He grabs the back of my neck and swings me around as I was begging him to stop. As he was doing this, he had this predatory smile on his face like he was really enjoying it.

A week later when I saw him again in the hall way, he football rushes me, I then took out a lock and punched him in his chest and took off.

A week after that, he brings 2 guys to confront me as they were confronting me, he was standing right behind them laughing. My friend told me to hand him the home made weapon so he could stab them but I didnt...

I didnt because I didnt want to bring any heat on my parents at the time cause they were working 10-12 hour shifts to pay the bills.

I took a lost that day and what haunts me is that I felt like I quit.

From that day on in school, I avoided my bully every chance I could. Everytime I saw him, I went the other way. Everytime I heard he was here or there, I avoided it. Thats what kills me to this day.

Its not in my personality to run from problems or hide from it. I face it head on, but I knew there were no other option but being arrested at the time and I didnt want to bring any trouble to my parents.

Fast forward 23 years later, I forgot about the whole thing and I come to find out this guy is addicted to drugs and I know where he lives.

I wasnt even asking about him or for him but one of my childhood friend told me thst guy ripped him off of 500 dollars. My childhood friend has no idea that guy bullied me.

As soon as he brought up his name, I was havinng wicked thoughts of pulling up to his house and breaking both of his legs. I dont mind going to prison and serving 3-4 years for it.

Then I had another evil thought that told me wait, hes addicted to drugs, you can find his drug dealer and pay his drug dealer 5k to change his drug to fentanyl or something hardcore like crack and he will never know it was you.

I also had another evil thought from hell that told me to get his teen children addicted to hardcore drugs.

Guys, I dont want these thoughts in my head. I really want to forget about the whole incident and forgice him but for some reason Im enraged and want revenge but thats not what I truly desire.

Ive never lost at anything I did ever, I think deep down if I let this slide I would feel like I took a lost and plus Im ashamed of myself for avoiding him in the hallway to diffuse the drama. I regret not giving it to him and cracking his skull 23 years ago but i think about how hard my parents were slaving in the warehouse at the time and I just couldnt do it.

Now 23 years later, parents are not in the way, I have lawyer money, how do I get these wicked thoughts out of my head?
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Re: Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge
No. Fuck off.

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Re: Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge
Feeling your pain..

I've a revenge episode that had Bern playing out in my mind for the last 41 years.


Something I should have done long ago to even a score, yet I didn't. I foolishly thought God was going go help me with forgiveness, but obviously he failed, or he simply don't give a fuk one way or the other.

Now I sit, and contemplate the matter on occasion, always regretting not doing what needed done.

Always wondering if ever I'm diagnosed with an incurable disease, I won't handle business before closing time..
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Re: Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge
Light incense and/or rub a dryer sheet on your noggin.

You are getting pinged.

They feed off that negative emotion.

They are electric.

They don't hang around extreme radar.

Sea water disrupts them.

Sleep well on a boat? It's not the gentle rocking.
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Forgive everyone that has ever done you wrong and you will find the secret of the universe.
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Bang his Wife, you’ll feel much better.
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Re: Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge
Sorry about your experience!

Whatever you do, dont go to prison.

What your your bully did is nothing compared to the hell of prison. I have an older brother in prison, it's hell.

It sound like karma has already caught up with him.

If hes on drugs it's to mask pain.

Plus, he has to buy the drugs which leads to money problems, then to employment issues, then relationship issues.

Put this dude in the rearview mirror. Hes already miserable!!!
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They say the best revenge is living well.

Maybe you can hire the guy to pump out a septic tank or something. Bullies usually end up digging holes or something for a living.
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The first rule of revenge is that you don't talk about revenge.
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You control the thoughts in your head. Force yourself to think about something else. He’s already paid the price for his behaviour.
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Leave his kids out of it. I'm sure just being his child is punishment enough.



Is he married, or divorced? Fuck his GF or wife.




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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge.

I habe no clue what caused me to be reminded of what happebed 23 years ago, but now that Im thinking about it, it infuriates me how I should have caused harm on him but I didnt.

I was a freshman in highschool 23 years ago, I was 14-15 standing at the vending machine. I was probably 5'5 at the time. A guy who was like 6'1 with his gf stood right behind me.

It was like I was able to read his mind, I cant explain it but i felt he was thinking, "im going to impress my girlfriend by making her laugh from me picking on this short kid."

He grabs the back of my neck and swings me around as I was begging him to stop. As he was doing this, he had this predatory smile on his face like he was really enjoying it.

A week later when I saw him again in the hall way, he football rushes me, I then took out a lock and punched him in his chest and took off.

A week after that, he brings 2 guys to confront me as they were confronting me, he was standing right behind them laughing. My friend told me to hand him the home made weapon so he could stab them but I didnt...

I didnt because I didnt want to bring any heat on my parents at the time cause they were working 10-12 hour shifts to pay the bills.

I took a lost that day and what haunts me is that I felt like I quit.

From that day on in school, I avoided my bully every chance I could. Everytime I saw him, I went the other way. Everytime I heard he was here or there, I avoided it. Thats what kills me to this day.

Its not in my personality to run from problems or hide from it. I face it head on, but I knew there were no other option but being arrested at the time and I didnt want to bring any trouble to my parents.

Fast forward 23 years later, I forgot about the whole thing and I come to find out this guy is addicted to drugs and I know where he lives.

I wasnt even asking about him or for him but one of my childhood friend told me thst guy ripped him off of 500 dollars. My childhood friend has no idea that guy bullied me.

As soon as he brought up his name, I was havinng wicked thoughts of pulling up to his house and breaking both of his legs. I dont mind going to prison and serving 3-4 years for it.

Then I had another evil thought that told me wait, hes addicted to drugs, you can find his drug dealer and pay his drug dealer 5k to change his drug to fentanyl or something hardcore like crack and he will never know it was you.

I also had another evil thought from hell that told me to get his teen children addicted to hardcore drugs.

Guys, I dont want these thoughts in my head. I really want to forget about the whole incident and forgice him but for some reason Im enraged and want revenge but thats not what I truly desire.

Ive never lost at anything I did ever, I think deep down if I let this slide I would feel like I took a lost and plus Im ashamed of myself for avoiding him in the hallway to diffuse the drama. I regret not giving it to him and cracking his skull 23 years ago but i think about how hard my parents were slaving in the warehouse at the time and I just couldnt do it.

Now 23 years later, parents are not in the way, I have lawyer money, how do I get these wicked thoughts out of my head?
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 49709741


seems you already removed all the obstructions stopping you from justice.

should you happen to be in the same space at him, and he bullies you, then get your revenge.
but he may win in the end. you may win in court but lose in life
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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge.

I habe no clue what caused me to be reminded of what happebed 23 years ago, but now that Im thinking about it, it infuriates me how I should have caused harm on him but I didnt.

I was a freshman in highschool 23 years ago, I was 14-15 standing at the vending machine. I was probably 5'5 at the time. A guy who was like 6'1 with his gf stood right behind me.

It was like I was able to read his mind, I cant explain it but i felt he was thinking, "im going to impress my girlfriend by making her laugh from me picking on this short kid."

He grabs the back of my neck and swings me around as I was begging him to stop. As he was doing this, he had this predatory smile on his face like he was really enjoying it.

A week later when I saw him again in the hall way, he football rushes me, I then took out a lock and punched him in his chest and took off.

A week after that, he brings 2 guys to confront me as they were confronting me, he was standing right behind them laughing. My friend told me to hand him the home made weapon so he could stab them but I didnt...

I didnt because I didnt want to bring any heat on my parents at the time cause they were working 10-12 hour shifts to pay the bills.

I took a lost that day and what haunts me is that I felt like I quit.

From that day on in school, I avoided my bully every chance I could. Everytime I saw him, I went the other way. Everytime I heard he was here or there, I avoided it. Thats what kills me to this day.

Its not in my personality to run from problems or hide from it. I face it head on, but I knew there were no other option but being arrested at the time and I didnt want to bring any trouble to my parents.

Fast forward 23 years later, I forgot about the whole thing and I come to find out this guy is addicted to drugs and I know where he lives.

I wasnt even asking about him or for him but one of my childhood friend told me thst guy ripped him off of 500 dollars. My childhood friend has no idea that guy bullied me.

As soon as he brought up his name, I was havinng wicked thoughts of pulling up to his house and breaking both of his legs. I dont mind going to prison and serving 3-4 years for it.

Then I had another evil thought that told me wait, hes addicted to drugs, you can find his drug dealer and pay his drug dealer 5k to change his drug to fentanyl or something hardcore like crack and he will never know it was you.

I also had another evil thought from hell that told me to get his teen children addicted to hardcore drugs.

Guys, I dont want these thoughts in my head. I really want to forget about the whole incident and forgice him but for some reason Im enraged and want revenge but thats not what I truly desire.

Ive never lost at anything I did ever, I think deep down if I let this slide I would feel like I took a lost and plus Im ashamed of myself for avoiding him in the hallway to diffuse the drama. I regret not giving it to him and cracking his skull 23 years ago but i think about how hard my parents were slaving in the warehouse at the time and I just couldnt do it.

Now 23 years later, parents are not in the way, I have lawyer money, how do I get these wicked thoughts out of my head?
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 49709741


I don't think you understand how this works. This is the opportunity you need to get over it by admitting that avoiding him was the right thing to do even though your ego hurts. We are better men for not letting our ego and emotions rule and to ruin our lives.
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Anyone who rips people off has a problem of his own, you don't have to do anything he does for himself. If your life is settled know that he isn't, that is your type of revenge live a better life than his. You know if he ripped one guy off, he ripped others off and someone is going to file charges against him or worse. People like him don't have good lives; they are no good. Just know you don't have to do anything or even what to do anything, and I'm glad you didn't do anything else that would have messed your life up and so you did better than him.

He grew up to be a weasel, it doesn't matter how tall he is or anything else he is a weasel and people know about him. You don't think other people have been ripped off by him, more than likely his reputation stinks.

May God Bless you with peace without understanding. Amen

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Forgive everyone that has ever done you wrong and you will find the secret of the universe.
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i used to often think of how to "get even" with those who wronged me. but the scene in movie where Jesus was nailed to the cross and he cries out, "please forgive them Father, for they know not what they have done!!" that changed me and now any time i think of revenge i just think of that scene and i feel pretty stupid for even considering revenge over forgiveness.

ability to forgive is a powerful gift from God and Jesus.
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Homeboy is a loser drug addict. God let you get even by discovering that, and even that one of your friends ripped him off.

Honestly the best revenge is living well. For you, all you have to do is not be a loser junky like him. Why not do better?
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Ok. This is easy

Step:1) Find him on google and social media. Find his employer.

Step 2:) create a fake social media footprint. (Twitter, facebook, reddit)

Step 3:) put his employers information and his real name in those profiles.

Step 4:) start saying racist things on social media


Eventually he gets doxxed and loses his job
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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge.

I habe no clue what caused me to be reminded of what happebed 23 years ago, but now that Im thinking about it, it infuriates me how I should have caused harm on him but I didnt.

I was a freshman in highschool 23 years ago, I was 14-15 standing at the vending machine. I was probably 5'5 at the time. A guy who was like 6'1 with his gf stood right behind me.

It was like I was able to read his mind, I cant explain it but i felt he was thinking, "im going to impress my girlfriend by making her laugh from me picking on this short kid."

He grabs the back of my neck and swings me around as I was begging him to stop. As he was doing this, he had this predatory smile on his face like he was really enjoying it.

A week later when I saw him again in the hall way, he football rushes me, I then took out a lock and punched him in his chest and took off.

A week after that, he brings 2 guys to confront me as they were confronting me, he was standing right behind them laughing. My friend told me to hand him the home made weapon so he could stab them but I didnt...

I didnt because I didnt want to bring any heat on my parents at the time cause they were working 10-12 hour shifts to pay the bills.

I took a lost that day and what haunts me is that I felt like I quit.

From that day on in school, I avoided my bully every chance I could. Everytime I saw him, I went the other way. Everytime I heard he was here or there, I avoided it. Thats what kills me to this day.

Its not in my personality to run from problems or hide from it. I face it head on, but I knew there were no other option but being arrested at the time and I didnt want to bring any trouble to my parents.

Fast forward 23 years later, I forgot about the whole thing and I come to find out this guy is addicted to drugs and I know where he lives.

I wasnt even asking about him or for him but one of my childhood friend told me thst guy ripped him off of 500 dollars. My childhood friend has no idea that guy bullied me.

As soon as he brought up his name, I was havinng wicked thoughts of pulling up to his house and breaking both of his legs. I dont mind going to prison and serving 3-4 years for it.

Then I had another evil thought that told me wait, hes addicted to drugs, you can find his drug dealer and pay his drug dealer 5k to change his drug to fentanyl or something hardcore like crack and he will never know it was you.

I also had another evil thought from hell that told me to get his teen children addicted to hardcore drugs.

Guys, I dont want these thoughts in my head. I really want to forget about the whole incident and forgice him but for some reason Im enraged and want revenge but thats not what I truly desire.

Ive never lost at anything I did ever, I think deep down if I let this slide I would feel like I took a lost and plus Im ashamed of myself for avoiding him in the hallway to diffuse the drama. I regret not giving it to him and cracking his skull 23 years ago but i think about how hard my parents were slaving in the warehouse at the time and I just couldnt do it.

Now 23 years later, parents are not in the way, I have lawyer money, how do I get these wicked thoughts out of my head?
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List of valid options

Get high
Bully someone else
Fuck bitches
Play video games
Make friends
Up your coolness level
Pickup a skateboard
Join the military & get paid to kill shit
Buy a spider
Buy a scorpion
Love yourself
Grow pot
Praise Satan
Make music
Fuck bitches
Get drunk
Throw up
Take a bump
Be a Cuck
Codeine yup
Fast food uh
Nicotine buzz
Fill my cup
Love

-Death
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The first rule of revenge is that you don't talk about revenge.
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I can help you. A lot. You won't like it at first, but if you take the time to go over everything from a new perspective, you will understand some things that will help you let this go.

1. You weren't bullied.

The guy tried to bully you, but one incident isn't bullying. The second time, you armed up and attacked HIM. You were the bully at that point, no matter what you were thinking. He retaliated, a bit, but it sounds like you and your friends getting into it with him and his.

2. You weren't a victim.

Sure, you were careful, but you had enemies, not people who unilaterally were just kicking your ass, day in and out at their pleasure.

So, you were careful not to get caught out. That's common sense, not being a victim.

Were you afraid? Sure. No one wants to be beaten up. Were you a sniveling coward about it? Apparently not.

3. This means that, while you are enraged at times, you focus on violence. The guy was a jerk from the sound of it...

But you also sound a bit like you gave as good as you got that way.

Meaning you have nothing to worry about that way.

4. Now, when you think about it, you assume that you CAN simply break his legs.

That isn't fear thinking. It's rage thinking. Not what a bullied kid does. It's what a fighter does.

Learn to consider him an old enemy, and not someone with power over you, which he truly didn't seem to be, and you will be able to let the whole thing go, in short order. Not instantly, perhaps, but it might help.

Don't let the fact that you felt fear turn you into a victim, in your own head. I bet he didn't think of it that way. You were the little jerk that kept hitting him and making him look bad...

:)

He might even think of YOU as having been the bully.

I hope this helps, or at least lets you have a moment of peace and reflection. I might not know enough from what you wrote. Or, you might be stronger than you thought you were at the time.
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Let go of the past. Those who exist there are depressed individuals. Those that exist in the future live with anxiety. Be like the Fonz and live in the present.

You are still letting your bully affect your life in a very bad way.
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Well obviously the hatred is destroying you - they have the power not you. Bullys are wounded beings usually when they were small and helpless someone abused or neglected them. See him as a weak abused little boy and you're the kind innocent angel boy he chose to take it out on.

Only way you'll rid him and the resentment from your energy is:

Make a statement each day for 10 days no matter how much you hate his guts.

It is magical healing method for resentments. I promise you. We don't understand why it works - it just does.

"I wish (or pray) from my deepest heart, for Bully's healing. May he feel inspiration strength and hope in life to quit drugs, and recognize the light within to resolve all inner pain. May Bully live a prosperous life and in good health and may his family and especially his children be safe and feel loved always".

You can change the above to your own words but you get the idea right?
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SWAT him.

Anonymous tip that the doper was talking about shooting something up.

Sit back and enjoy the show.
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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge.

I habe no clue what caused me to be reminded of what happebed 23 years ago, but now that Im thinking about it, it infuriates me how I should have caused harm on him but I didnt.

I was a freshman in highschool 23 years ago, I was 14-15 standing at the vending machine. I was probably 5'5 at the time. A guy who was like 6'1 with his gf stood right behind me.

It was like I was able to read his mind, I cant explain it but i felt he was thinking, "im going to impress my girlfriend by making her laugh from me picking on this short kid."

He grabs the back of my neck and swings me around as I was begging him to stop. As he was doing this, he had this predatory smile on his face like he was really enjoying it.

A week later when I saw him again in the hall way, he football rushes me, I then took out a lock and punched him in his chest and took off.

A week after that, he brings 2 guys to confront me as they were confronting me, he was standing right behind them laughing. My friend told me to hand him the home made weapon so he could stab them but I didnt...

I didnt because I didnt want to bring any heat on my parents at the time cause they were working 10-12 hour shifts to pay the bills.

I took a lost that day and what haunts me is that I felt like I quit.

From that day on in school, I avoided my bully every chance I could. Everytime I saw him, I went the other way. Everytime I heard he was here or there, I avoided it. Thats what kills me to this day.

Its not in my personality to run from problems or hide from it. I face it head on, but I knew there were no other option but being arrested at the time and I didnt want to bring any trouble to my parents.

Fast forward 23 years later, I forgot about the whole thing and I come to find out this guy is addicted to drugs and I know where he lives.

I wasnt even asking about him or for him but one of my childhood friend told me thst guy ripped him off of 500 dollars. My childhood friend has no idea that guy bullied me.

As soon as he brought up his name, I was havinng wicked thoughts of pulling up to his house and breaking both of his legs. I dont mind going to prison and serving 3-4 years for it.

Then I had another evil thought that told me wait, hes addicted to drugs, you can find his drug dealer and pay his drug dealer 5k to change his drug to fentanyl or something hardcore like crack and he will never know it was you.

I also had another evil thought from hell that told me to get his teen children addicted to hardcore drugs.

Guys, I dont want these thoughts in my head. I really want to forget about the whole incident and forgice him but for some reason Im enraged and want revenge but thats not what I truly desire.

Ive never lost at anything I did ever, I think deep down if I let this slide I would feel like I took a lost and plus Im ashamed of myself for avoiding him in the hallway to diffuse the drama. I regret not giving it to him and cracking his skull 23 years ago but i think about how hard my parents were slaving in the warehouse at the time and I just couldnt do it.

Now 23 years later, parents are not in the way, I have lawyer money, how do I get these wicked thoughts out of my head?
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 49709741


Your choice. Get over it or hang on to it and in that case you let the bullying continue without the bully even knowing it.
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Re: Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge
Im willing to bet OP is still under 6 feet tall.


This is why he's still mad.
Crap
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You already won....unless your life is fucked up as well

This is what happens to bullies...bad families lead to bad choices....he was just a kid as well reacting to whatever was happening in his life
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Kill him with kindness instead. Offer to do something really nice for him. Make him feel lower than low and more stupid than stupid.
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Karma already got him. Don't worry about it.
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Ummmm no

You got bullied for a reason
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“Watch your thoughts, they become your words; watch your words, they become your actions; watch your actions, they become your habits; watch your habits, they become your character; watch your character, it becomes your destiny.”

― Lao Tzu
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Can someone here help me get over my bully from 23 years ago? I totally forgot about the incident but out of the blue Im enraged and want revenge.

I habe no clue what caused me to be reminded of what happebed 23 years ago, but now that Im thinking about it, it infuriates me how I should have caused harm on him but I didnt.

I was a freshman in highschool 23 years ago, I was 14-15 standing at the vending machine. I was probably 5'5 at the time. A guy who was like 6'1 with his gf stood right behind me.

It was like I was able to read his mind, I cant explain it but i felt he was thinking, "im going to impress my girlfriend by making her laugh from me picking on this short kid."

He grabs the back of my neck and swings me around as I was begging him to stop. As he was doing this, he had this predatory smile on his face like he was really enjoying it.

A week later when I saw him again in the hall way, he football rushes me, I then took out a lock and punched him in his chest and took off.

A week after that, he brings 2 guys to confront me as they were confronting me, he was standing right behind them laughing. My friend told me to hand him the home made weapon so he could stab them but I didnt...

I didnt because I didnt want to bring any heat on my parents at the time cause they were working 10-12 hour shifts to pay the bills.

I took a lost that day and what haunts me is that I felt like I quit.

From that day on in school, I avoided my bully every chance I could. Everytime I saw him, I went the other way. Everytime I heard he was here or there, I avoided it. Thats what kills me to this day.

Its not in my personality to run from problems or hide from it. I face it head on, but I knew there were no other option but being arrested at the time and I didnt want to bring any trouble to my parents.

Fast forward 23 years later, I forgot about the whole thing and I come to find out this guy is addicted to drugs and I know where he lives.

I wasnt even asking about him or for him but one of my childhood friend told me thst guy ripped him off of 500 dollars. My childhood friend has no idea that guy bullied me.

As soon as he brought up his name, I was havinng wicked thoughts of pulling up to his house and breaking both of his legs. I dont mind going to prison and serving 3-4 years for it.

Then I had another evil thought that told me wait, hes addicted to drugs, you can find his drug dealer and pay his drug dealer 5k to change his drug to fentanyl or something hardcore like crack and he will never know it was you.

I also had another evil thought from hell that told me to get his teen children addicted to hardcore drugs.

Guys, I dont want these thoughts in my head. I really want to forget about the whole incident and forgice him but for some reason Im enraged and want revenge but thats not what I truly desire.

Ive never lost at anything I did ever, I think deep down if I let this slide I would feel like I took a lost and plus Im ashamed of myself for avoiding him in the hallway to diffuse the drama. I regret not giving it to him and cracking his skull 23 years ago but i think about how hard my parents were slaving in the warehouse at the time and I just couldnt do it.

Now 23 years later, parents are not in the way, I have lawyer money, how do I get these wicked thoughts out of my head?
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 49709741

The bully was correct. Your wicked and needed punishment.





GLP