Dude, I wish I could smoke pot like I use to on a daily basis. But now I feel guilty whenever I get high. It almost becomes a haunting kind of high, knowing I could be doing something better with my life instead of just smoking weed and watching the days fly by. Feel really guilty smoking it. Wasting time, knowing I could do better. It's weird. I probably smoked the shit for ten years no problem, now I just get high by being completely stone cold sober. Seeing what I missed out on for so many years, I don't want to go back to being a pothead. At least not until I'm in a good place, with my life being in order. Even then it may never be the same. Sucks because that was my go to vice. Now I don't use anything, except for cigarettes and kratom. But even that shit is about to go out the window. It is hell getting old.