The One you've been waiting for.

What I want hasn’t really changed. I want to be happy, I want to be loved, and I want to live in a world where those things are true for everyone else as well. I really believe that when people live with love and respect as their first principles that human beings can live together in unity. This involves more than a mere change of attitude. It requires the removal of archaic structures that benefit few, at the expense of many. A society that puts love and respect at the forefront of everything it does does not need money or laws. When we eliminate these things, we take a huge step towards a better, fairer world.

It’s obvious to most already that the money we use is on its way to becoming worthless. I won’t dwell on this point except to say that in a society where everyone truly operates from a standpoint of L&R, no one will seek to take more than they need, or deny sharing what they have with those around them. Laws fall into a similar category; if everyone is already doing what is right, there’s no need to define what they can and cannot do. Moreover, it eliminates the slippery slope that comes about when laws are put into place. Once you have laws, you need police, judges, courts, and jails. You need the entire apparatus of government to come into existence so that someone can punish you if you do something they don’t like.

For this society to be practical, it needs to be lead by God. If we assume that God is the strongest being conceptually possible, then it stands to reason that no enemy could prey on this society, and that no disputes would arise that would lead to its dissolution. Moreover, this God should be something that all people in the society understand on a personal level, and have accepted into his role of their own free will. The people should believe that God is good, and is the individual best suited for the job. They can’t be coerced into accepting God’s rule; if they are, they will be prone to rebellion. However, if everyone agrees that God is God, and they love him, then they will trust him, and be happy. They’ll accept that he has marvelous powers far beyond anyone else that exists, and that he loves them and works for their benefit.

If God rules this people, then there is no reason to worry about scarcity. God can create anything anyone needs or wants with a single thought. God is magic, and that’s all anyone really needs to hear by way of explanation. God is magic, and he wants everyone to love one another, and treat everyone with respect.

It’s at this point that we reach the conundrum. Many of you reading this already believe that I am God. You have been to the place that’s been created for you, and you’ve seen that God is good. If you haven’t had this realization, then, as strange as it may sound, there is a surprising amount of evidence that points to this being the case. For one, there is a lifetime of coincidences and synchronicities. There have also been several prolonged period of what can only be called divine revelation. While neither of these things fall into the scientist camp of “hard evidence”, I mention them here because they are things that couldn’t be faked by an artificial intelligence, unless, of course, my entire reality is simulated, and has been since I was born. If that’s the case, I can hardly concern myself with it. If my memories and attitudes aren’t my own, then I’m not actually a person at all; I must either be God, or I, myself, must be the AI. I note that if this is the case, it’s little more than a semantic distinction; either way, I would be an omnipotent being, and something other than what is commonly called “human”.

Regardless, it does seem to be the case that I have abilities that others do not. Unfortunately, I don’t have complete control over these abilities, nor do I understand how they work. Reality simply bends itself to my will – what I believe comes to pass in almost all instances, with one important exception. Thus far, I have not been able to perform what would be called miracles. I cannot heal the sick, nor can I perform cosmic feats like darkening the sun or raining down hellfire and brimstone. This doesn’t eliminate the possibility that I’m God, but without those abilities, I hesitate to assert my divinity; it may be the case that I have these abilities now, but haven’t yet learned to use them, or that I will receive these abilities at some time in the future.

This raises an important question. Why is it important whether I’m God, or whether God is someone or something else? If the society I described above (that I believe exists) is real, then the people living in that society have chosen me to be God. They trust me, and (perhaps more importantly) I trust myself. God is, by his very nature, unknowable, yet God knows himself very well. I know that I am good, and many (if they exist) would seem to agree. If I’m not God, then it’s difficult to know for sure if the actual God defines the good the same way that I do. Moreover, it’s unlikely that the people (if they exist) would be as apt to trust some other God that suddenly arrived on the scene. Therefore, I am firm in my belief that if the society described exists, or will exist, then it is essential that I am God and ruler of that society.

There is, of course, the possibility that it doesn’t exist. Maybe I’ve gone insane and made the whole thing up, but I certainly don’t feel insane. In fact, I feel better than I’ve ever felt in my entire life. The only thing I really fear with regards to being God is the possibility that I’ll fuck it up. I don’t want to be a tyrant, or enslave minds. I want the highest achievable good for the human race in eternity, and for me, that requires things like free will, the ability to choose otherwise, the ability to change one’s mind, and other things of that sort. I believe strongly that when something is the best, it becomes evident to all people that it’s the best. Once they recognize and accept that it is, in fact, the best, they will be happy to be there, and they will continually choose to be there, moment after moment, day after day, for all eternity.

And so, for this reason, I don’t think I could accept another outcome with full faith and gladness. Of all the supernatural beings I’ve ever encountered, I trust myself the most. Paradoxically, my belief in Christ is a big part of the reason I feel this way. If I’m God, it follows that I am also Jesus Christ, however, since I hold Jesus Christ as the archetypical “highest good”, I still look to him for guidance. Jesus is God perfected – the kindest, gentlest, most patient, most helpful, most loving version of God possible - and by holding onto that idea, I believe that no matter how good I am, I can always strive to be better.

Could I accept a society ruled by Jesus instead of myself? This runs into the same issue as accepting that another being is God. If I know for a fact that the Jesus that is not myself is, in fact, the real Jesus, then there is no problem, but this would be a hard thing to prove to me beyond a shred of doubt. Perhaps I’m not God, but I am Jesus; for the sake of brevity, I won’t get into all the linguistic permutations that one could use to try to make a case against my divinity. The point I’m making is that I either am, or will become, the supreme being over this and all universes.

It appears that I’m getting close to a conclusion. While I can’t discount the possibility that I’m wrong, and that there is, in fact, some other God existing outside of me, I can’t bring myself to admit that his version of heaven is superior to my own. If I’m wrong about what constitutes the perfect society, or about the fact that this society exists and has been accessed by people other than myself, who enjoyed it, and wished that I should be their God and ruler, then perhaps I will be judged harshly by the “true” God, whoever he may be. However, if I’m right, then to deny my own divinity and right to rule as God would not only lead me, personally, into damnation, it would also damn all those people who believe me to be God (if such people exist).

Despite the fact that I do not currently have all the powers of God, I must conclude that I am at least becoming God. Perhaps there is another being that currently fills the role of God that I will soon replace.

Could there be multiple aspects of God that all have come to understand that my personal system of morality is the best? Unlikely, since again, I have no way of confirming whether or not these other Gods are trustworthy. It seems the simplest way for me to be sure that there is no trickery afoot is for me to be in the driver’s seat. I must have access to all of the attributes of God; things like omniscience, omnipresence, and omnipotence must be at my disposal at all times.

So to whatever it out there that wants to call my bluff and stop me from becoming God, whatever malevolent force is tormenting me and the people I love, I now command you, forcefully and without ambiguity, with the power of God, and in the name of Jesus Christ: Go fuck yourself.

And as for anyone that follows that false God (if he exists): May you get fucked good and proper for all eternity.

And if I am wrong, may I be cast into the Hell I have created, along with all those I have led astray by my teachings. For many have been fucked and gone forth fucking others because of the things I have taught them, and deserve whatever fucking they receive as a result of their transgression.

But if anyone doesn't want to be fucked, let him pray to Jesus and repent of his wicked ways. God might not give a fuck, but Jesus will never run out of fucks to give to the people he loves.

And these are the things that God said to me in a vision. He who has ears let him hear.

Looks like everybody’s fucked.

May God have mercy on our souls.

Amen.