and a few years later.. i married someone else. why?

because i thought he was long gone.

now think of the movie "the graduate.." and me.. on my wedding day. if he woulda shown up as a conscienscious objector.. i would have called the whole thing off. right then and there. i mean it.

it would have just taken one call from that man to call the whole thing off. and everything would have been different.

there's enuff "blame" to go around that it's nobody's "fault" anymore.

i feel horrible.