thanks for this post. I just brought my dog to the vet yesterday; she's 15, has had a good long life, and is now panting, bad hips, in pain and may have cancer.
I brought her home for a few days to try the painkillers and see how she does...but I know it my heart it's just time.
I did not take the vet up on her offer to do bloodwork, steroid treatments and chemo. I'd only be doing it for myself.
Right now, Ladybug is asleep at my feet, dreaming like a puppy. I'll miss her very much.
i went through something similar earlier this year. the vet found problem after problem and she ended up on so many tablets, it seemed that whatever we gave her it threw up some other problem. and thats what got me thinking about this. in the end she let me know it was time to go, i know i tried very very hard for her, but it was her time. i didnt want her to die distressed and scared. we have her buried in the garden and my daughter and i made her a headstone with cement and glittery things. she loved glitter.
i dont blame you for your decision, i think you are doing the right thing for her, and thats the most important thing.
my heart goes out to you at this time, it really does