I feel sorry for you OP. That you felt like you had to post something like this about someone you loved to a forum of strangers.

Hopefully time will heal you wounds


The last time I saw her body it had so many stretch marks it looked like a red fruit stripe gum stick. She weighed 95 pounds. Her bones all stuck out. She had spider veins and varicose veins on her legs so bad they looked like road maps. She had a huge red scar on her side from her appendectomy. Her hair was dyed in a way that when she wore a french braid her head had a skunk stripe down the back of it. She wore a pound of makeup every day. (Which cost me a TON of money) and went through about 10 cans of hairspray per week.

Time won't heal my wounds. Some wounds never heal. My bitterness goes deep. Very deep. After 20 years nothing has diminished and never will. Oh well.