just sayin, op ... being that i have lost two family members due to suicide, i get really nervous with this type of posting/s that i come across, i do not look for them, but when they come to me, well ... i kinda wonder ... ok, what is the meaning ... what should i do ... omg, its happening again! etc etc

i know the feeling of giving it up altogether, maybe its a dna thingie, not sure, but do take care with your words op ... do indeed tell us of how you feel, but do REVISE and rethink, ... when you post stuff like this out, meaning, be impeccable with your word, be safe, seek help and offer help too! when you can, that is.