OP I didn't read all replies because most seemed very cruel when you are having problems with your life. Here is something you will Love. You said you were open minded so lets find out how open minded you are after learning about Ho'oponopono. Dr. Hew Len brought this type of Mantra into our present day world. It is an ancient Healing art that you pray to the creator God to dissolve or remove the old memories that continue to trigger our lives. He wrote a book called Zero Point and someone posted a thread here last night about this Dr. Here is a few videos. Glad to see you are not ashamed to ask for help. Most people hide until things get out of hand or they go fill up on pills that numb their mind, body and soul to a point it causes DIS EASE.

Thread: Therapist clears out mental hospital with ho'oponopono. Find out how and begin today.

Peace to you