Having a hard time accepting that I probably won't have children.

Some days I think I want to, but I am terrified of giving birth. Also, this world is so messed up...is it fair to bring new life into an existence where day-to-dayn survival is so frickin' hard? I think not. Not to mention kids are so expensive.

But as soon as I finish listing the valid reasons above NOT to have kids, I wonder if I will regret not having an family once I'm on my death bed.

Can life still be happy and fulfilling without having children? Can old age still be secure and enriching without children and grandchildren?

I'm so conflicted.