I hear you. A few years ago things were really bad in my life, just like now but maybe worse b/c I grew spiritually a lot since then. I drank half a fifth of vodka and 3 Coronas 3-4x a week. It was my poison of choice because I'd take a shot w/ lime then down a beer so within minutes I was already feeling completely awesome. Then half hour later I'd repeat the shot/beer and be even happier because the first round hadn't even metabolized.

I just feel wrong doing that alone. I used to do that routine with my husband. I know it sounds awful but some of our best family days were when we were drinking like this.
We just had so much focus for our kids and enjoyed them and each other. It's really fucking sad I know. We both quit that. He is overseas and I don't think he is drinking much, no stress for him with no kids to deal with.

I haven't tried lexapro but had horrible results with Wellbutrin (caused me to separate from my husband and lose all my inhibitions and act completely out of my mind), Paxil (three trips to the ER with extreme vertigo, anxiety, relentless feeling that I was dying of some horrible disease but it was only Paxil withdrawal). Prozac used to work great for me. I just read enough really bad stuff about it to not want to go there again.

If one worked for you though, go for it. I became a total alcoholic on Wellbutrin and especially Paxil, which was awful because I lived directly above a liquor store at the time and was in college. I got a great set of genes, not! If it isn't depression it's alcoholism or both. Totally runs in my family.