I will never know myself until I do this on my own.

It always starts with the truth. The lies cause excruciating pain for the psyche, because they disregard/deny/defile the reality of what it has experienced, its very existence even. The lies might be necessary for survival initially, but eventually they have to be discarded, if one's survival allows it.

Yeah go diving in the indian sea towards oman , alone .. Pffh retard.

Out of all the dreams I have, this is one of them.