you know it is remarkable how contagious emotion is

nothing within our local memory fields would or could affect me if i myself had not experienced negative emotions in my own experience being within them
it is not so much the emotions of others
it is the emotions of others prompt my own memory of emotions with others, that is what occurs
so if i am within others emotions (memory fields) of our past that match/are similar in texture to my own
my own memories in our field enliven to me
so it`s a narrow band of emotion within me that becomes re enlivened negatively because it is only one topic within emotion that i have experienced negative to me since being here
so that`s okay
but to me
the topic love
is my most emotive topic i possess
so that is why i get odd on this topic
soon as i live it our alive this sensation will diminish and won`t get in the way