I am not looking for heaven or some place, I just am, don't know why I can't drop this and just go dig roads man, build houses, smash down old ones, go pub watch footie with my mates and not think about this, maybe one day have that farm I want, but I am driven to explore this, to alter my lifestyle to continue, to make changes within to further it, and have been with a couple steps forward one back kind of thing, yet the bridge just keeps coming back to me, I do not think it would lead to heaven, in the kind of way some would think, I do not even know if heaven exists, and not to sure if I really care, I just am, that is all I can say or express, words do not seem to be enough to explain what is driving me, I am just me, doing what I do, does that make sense?

I trust you until you give me reason not to, so your point can be questionable, yet it is still worth hearing.