Any tarot readers willing to give me a reading?

I know I will probably get a ton of troll posts and fakers out there, but if you can read cards and are willing to put some down on my behalf, I would be very appreciative.

My name is J, I live in the southwest, I'm in my fourth decade of life, I've been through alot and have seen alot, but lately I feel disconnected, discontent, and in need of a change. What I feel I need will cause pain and hurt to others I deeply care about, so I don't know if I should just continue as always or move towards this draw to be something and someone else. My life is actually great, what most would dream and strive for, but it doesn't feel like my true place in this life.

Thank you in advance to any true responders, I will know who you are.