how can i contact you? what is your name OP? I always believed in Jesus being raised catholic but didn't understand until I was 18 and in a jackpot from serious drug addiction.

Humbled and full of sorrow for the hurt i had caused others I cried out to "God" from my knees asking for help and He revealed Himself to me in a profound way which will leave me eternally changed.

Be sincere and honest with God, but have faith, come as you are, and ask Him to reveal Himself to you: "I believe Lord, but help me with my unbelief."