It is hard for me to connect with God through humility. I do not believe in complaining and it seems important to be grateful for the beauty of life, but I do not take to humble prayer very well.

I use the Lord's prayer a lot and try to say it slowly and feel every word of it. That is the best I can do for now. I feel like an actor who cannot cry on demand--like somehow there should be more emotion. The culture has done a good job of toughening us up and detaching us from the Divine. That is one of the most powerful aspects of the media: to allow us to experience things vicariously and thus desensitize us from the experiences and emotions meant to bring us closer to God.