Both replies are spot on! I cannot tell you how many times I have felt like this is one of the last times I will get to do a certain thing. In fact I just heated up some dinner in the microwave and the thought came to my mind "I'm not going to have this convenience much longer".

To the second reply concerning the comfort aspect... I also know what you mean by that. I feel that because my instinct is telling me something it is a comfort. I know it is not going to be anywhere near easy but a comfort in knowing something is about to happen makes me feel just a little more prepared, or as prepared as I possibly can be.

I guess there is a part of me that is afraid for my family with all of this. If I cannot protect them I just want someone who can and will protect them.

I guess I feel that something is closer to happening because of the level of mental and spiritual growing I have done over the past few months. It almost feels like there were things I had to learn before I would be able to cope with the "big event". I have become so much closer to appreciation of those little things and even the big things that were once viewed as thorns in my life.