im so bored i cant explain the heavy feeling...

its like a whole kind of depression on its own.. and say go out for a walk cause i hate this neighborhood and i dont go out walking at night time anymore cause iv been locked up enough times in this shitty place already.. just saying.. shit happens when you go walk abouts in the night.. and i have a shitty car with little bit of fuel left in it and not a cent to my name.. and without money you cant do nothing in this fucked up city.. if i had some of my friends or brothers here it would be all good but im left all alone and havent got a single friend or lover or acquaintance in the world.. its like im a prisoner under the roof of these draining assholes who are family who im boarding with so i cant complain cause id be on the streets otherwise.. and i shouldnt even be on this level in reality im a fucking elite i cant stand this lesser life but it seems some asshole somewhere out there thinks they are teaching me a lesson aka god/devil what ever the fuck.. anyway yeh im bored if you all wanna come in for a chat feel free to..