Ive grown to despise a few things about life in general lately.. Same stuff most others have grown to hate.. The obligation of "work" so we can have "money" only to be stolen from us in the form of "taxes." Ive also grown to despise girls (aside from my mother and cousins) Ive met very few girls/women that I can actually relate to..
When/if I DO find a gal Im into, the feelings are never mutual.. The perpetual "friend zone" (as Ive been aptly nick named) is a daunting task in self control.. Ive grown to better control my emotions and avoid attachment at ALL costs to alleviate the "friend zone-itus".. Even so far as to push away a few people.. (regretful) BUT, this way I will not become emotionally compromised to the point where my decisions are hindered by it..
With that all being said, I hope and pray for HUGE changes in the coming weeks/months/years as I dont feel I can stand much more of the bull shit called the "American Dream." What a bunch of hogwash..

rant off..
*sigh*