OP, lots of great advice & caring people here for you! I truly hope you cry it all out! Sometimes that just makes it all better to let that cry out! I don't know why you would feel the way you do but there is always something in the world to make you feel better. Maybe think of your kids or grandchildren, your wife or husband? Sorry I do not know your sex. But there is always a good answer in life.

I sometimes feel very sad too the way some of my family is and I always wonder why some of them are the way they are but everyone is different and no use for me worrying & crying about it because they will always be the way they are. I learned that through the years. I went through hell in my childhood years and never looked back on it. I only looked to the future.

You can always look to the future! Think of happiness and happy times. I don't know if you have a friend or someone to talk to but talking to someone will do wonders for you. How about a therapist/counselor? I would love to go see one but can't right now due to money being tight. But hey, I consider myself strong & I go on happy for my family!

Just think, it could be worse and the person next to you could have it worse than you. You just never know!

Be happy and think happy and you will feel better! Have a great attitude toward things and don't dwell on the past.

Hugs xoxoxo