he there OP, i know how you feel, i know there's a void inside you, because i've been there,

i always believed in God,went to church, i found it amazing,untill i became 16,church didn't do it for me, it didn't add up what THEY said....

i began on a journey trough the satanic path,and stayed there untill my early 20's, nothing but bad luck,and still i felt i could better my ways

now, 8 years later i read the bible daily,pray and actually KNOW God is watching over us,just be kind to others, reflect on yourself( and then i mean think about how you want to live)
i can assure you there is a God out there and he cares just as much about you...you only have to find him bro.