And this is just about me and my brother, I didn't mention that my mother died also when I was five. D.I.D. now that I look at it, is exactly what I was going through leading up to and after I found out the truth. I was trying to deal with an identity that was trapped as a child. This boy that could never come to grip with reality and constantly escaped through weed, video games, books, movies, GLP. Oddly enough though, I learned a few techniques from GLP.

It helped me understand why my life had no direction, like a ship at sea with no compass (hehe, Firefly) and that i never would find my compass as long as I was this boy. Then I had a revelation one night with a reaccuring dream. The dream started as an old memory of getting lost in a grocery store when i was four and I cried and cried until my Mother came and found me. And I had that same dream for about a month straight. Then one day it dawned on me that I could save myself and that night it was same dream, but instead of my mother finding me, it was me. My adult self. And I took my child self in hand and told him that everything was going to be alright. That WE were going to be alright. And since then, I've found a path to enlightenment where the other side of me (my darkside, the child) is as much a part of me as my adult self and WE face the trials of my life together now, allowing me to finally move forward.