Unfortunately you're MUCH too low a level of mason to know the truth of what the masonic order truly stands for. Only the highest levels have been shown what they consider to be truth (Luciferianism). The rest of the order is kept in the dark to blindly defend it as being "honorable". Please, for your own sake, dig deeper - but be careful. If they think you are trying to expose them, your life will be in grave danger.

Spoken from someone who knows.