I beat the cancer sticks

Good job, I quit about 18 years ago...I couldn't have done it with out my cat, well, my wife's cat. Whenever I wanted a smoke, I'd kick that fucker clear across the room, made me feel so much better...

Congrats, but it ain't over till it's over.

I'm five years off without so much as a puff and lately I've been hearing the voice telling me to go grab a pack and hide it in the garage, and I even had a heart attack this year.

My cravings lasted about a year...I never gave in, but would have such vivid dreams about having a cigarette that I would wake up feeling guilty for giving in, but then I'd realize it was just a dream and I didn't really cave in...addiction sucks.

LOL my dog has suffered a little bit of my wrath but he had that coming. You should never whine for 10 minutes straight when your master is trying to meditate and just quit smoking.

Heres to hoping I make it that long.

Good for you! Are you having the smoking dreams yet?

Yeah my mom tells me the same shit, that it never really leaves you, but it gets easier.

There is one trick I have that you two probably didn't employ and thats meditation. I am not talking a couple times or a 30 minute session. I am talking about over 3 years of sitting still for hours at a time without a single thought.

Eventually you tap into your soul, which is without definition.

This quiting came because of a need to be clean. I have already given up sex, sugar, video games, drama and most importantly, ME.

That's right, I don't exist anymore. Well, at least who we all think we are. :] (ego, self, mary/sue/john)

So I think I may be able to last with ease, hopefully, as I am letting EVERYTHING go. And without a personality, there is no addiction or craving.

It's hard to explain the unexplainable. :P Most people think I am batshit. But madness is a gift from god.

I've had them already. But I've been trying to quit for a long time. Some times I got further than others. This time is a little different. Merely because of my spiritual progress. I am MORE aware and in control of my self.

EDIT: The smoking dreams are the body purging itself and influencing the unconscious mind. They suck, before I didn't get it...thought demons were trying to make me fail. :P

I couldn't have quit without your wifes pussy either.

^

I always kill threads and conversations as soon as I mention anything spiritual.


I think I will go live in a cave.


Bitches better not start calling me jesus if I ever return. :P (Sad thing is, I look like those portraits you see -__-)



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Tell us what to do Brian..


That is good to here congratz. I fell off the path some years ago,hope to get back on it sometime.

Brian? lol

good luck regardless <3 :] You can do it!

if you start again now you're a fool.

So, how sure are you it wasn't demons?

Because my life has nothing to do with anything except the nature of reality and soul tapping, so with that comes intelligence, awareness and discernment. I am observant of my body, my dreams, everything around me. When something occurs that I do not understand, I pay attention to it. And I have pretty much deduced what it is that is happening during dreams and that is processing destructive energy out of the body. Things your body is focused on will occur in the dreamscape. But it depends on IF it needs to do that. If you are already clean, dreams become different things because your body is no longer in control of your subconscious.

YES!
So, how do I combine that awareness that I am developing and soul searching I am doing with having to make a living?

Struggling right now to survive financially -and get my soul straight.

I do treat everyone I come in contact with like they are just the vessel for an immortal soul...and their needs and wants are dictated by what stage of enlightenment they are in...respectfully

I think you are just ahead of me in my work ...nice to know...