Has anyone else lived this all before? Im trapped in a time loop. Groundhog Day is real?

Not this particular day but this whole totality we call time. This conscious observer that is writing this post and all of his experiences, thoughts and deeds past, present and future that I could somehow refer to; I'm a real life schrodinger cat. Am I alive or dead and either answer is as awful and horrendous as I think, except to deny and never flip that proverbial box than there is just the box and nothing that could be inside it is of any relevance, except you will always know you did in fact put a cat in a solid box and it cannot breathe but now exists solely as a void that eventually starts to reek the foul odor of ones naivete, ignorance and shame. Has anyone found themselves at this layer of Hell? If so, kinda cool they have GLP here.