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I had a very enlightening experience some time ago that changed my perspective of Life ...

imagine two people, living in the exact same environment - making equal pay, doing what they liked doing ... only one person was completely miserable, and the other was blissfully happy with their circumstances


like the OP - the miserale individual in this true story, found faults in everything - including the things that the partner found rewarding ...and didn't appreciate anything ...

predictably, the fault finder, became self destructive --- while at the same time, his partner, became self creative ---
in the exact same environment ...


- and even though they eventually grew apart ... he remained miserable - and she remained happy .... nothing changed that, because that is what they CHOOSE to experience




YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE
and no one to blame but yourself, if you are miserable
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Hang in there, OP! Jesus is coming back any day now to set the record straight. If any reading this don't know Him, you have a little bit of time remaining to fix that. Look up!
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Middle aged IT worker. I see the bad in everything. I see the lies and boogeymen people create to elevate themselves to hero status. Its the marvelization of society. If you can make demographic X evil that equates yourself to hero status. Everyone is practicing it now. Everything is so fucked up now. Im not seeing the point to being miserable anymore. At work I'm chasing an ever smaller piece of pie. You pretty much have to become a pathological liar to advance in corporate America. A fair days wage for a days work was probably always a lie too. Wife's head is buried in TV fantasy soap operas. Somehow its my responsibility to provide a lavish lifestyle even though she's more educated. That's the hoot about American education right now. Women have all these opportunities to become over-educated and no social pressure to do anything with them. Got a doctorate, then start pumping out kids. just finished med school, you deserve a man to take care of you. Its fucked because I don't know one relationship that has survived the woman being the primary bread winner. If your a man and your wife makes more than you. You're looked down upon. period. even if its behind your back.

Im so tired. i don't know ho much longer im hanging in there. Not any time soon, not going to let the dog down. But i'm not going to grow old in this country. I see the hate in these kids eyes. It's going to be much worse here in 10+ years. The globalists have been playing the long game for decades. America will be like that torched restaurant in Goodfellas. They were signing away our futures with their right hand while waiving a flag in the left. always remember nobility largely only exists in fiction. Its the lie that propels society forward.
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I think you are in a good place

you have found a wall and walls are a good thing

you are looking back at what you have moved through and you

are ready to move on - the wall - seems impossible but you will make it to the other side

then you will see a new land

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Middle aged IT worker. I see the bad in everything. I see the lies and boogeymen people create to elevate themselves to hero status. Its the marvelization of society. If you can make demographic X evil that equates yourself to hero status. Everyone is practicing it now. Everything is so fucked up now. Im not seeing the point to being miserable anymore. At work I'm chasing an ever smaller piece of pie. You pretty much have to become a pathological liar to advance in corporate America. A fair days wage for a days work was probably always a lie too. Wife's head is buried in TV fantasy soap operas. Somehow its my responsibility to provide a lavish lifestyle even though she's more educated. That's the hoot about American education right now. Women have all these opportunities to become over-educated and no social pressure to do anything with them. Got a doctorate, then start pumping out kids. just finished med school, you deserve a man to take care of you. Its fucked because I don't know one relationship that has survived the woman being the primary bread winner. If your a man and your wife makes more than you. You're looked down upon. period. even if its behind your back.

Im so tired. i don't know ho much longer im hanging in there. Not any time soon, not going to let the dog down. But i'm not going to grow old in this country. I see the hate in these kids eyes. It's going to be much worse here in 10+ years. The globalists have been playing the long game for decades. America will be like that torched restaurant in Goodfellas. They were signing away our futures with their right hand while waiving a flag in the left. always remember nobility largely only exists in fiction. Its the lie that propels society forward.
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Maybe you should take your wife somewhere on a short trip, do not make it a well to do place, then tell her how bad it is for you. If she anything of a wife she will listen, no TV, I quit watch that tube years ago. It is a trap to keep people from thinking.

I disagree with the woman getting more than a man, as if men did not have to pay their way through school. My daughter worked their way through and paid the loans. Both married with fine husbands they love, they work from home and home school very bright children and I not bragging, Home schooling they are doing is hands down the best a child could have, it classic and they are way ahead of the public schools. All woman are not the same, money is not that important to me, surviving is the biggest thing with my husband who doing better now thank God. Has a blood clot in his leg that seems to have done something to cause no worry, Thanks to God and prayer!
Sorry I got a headache

These are the times that tries men's and
women's souls!

May we come though it victorious!
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Middle aged IT worker. I see the bad in everything. I see the lies and boogeymen people create to elevate themselves to hero status. Its the marvelization of society. If you can make demographic X evil that equates yourself to hero status. Everyone is practicing it now. Everything is so fucked up now. Im not seeing the point to being miserable anymore. At work I'm chasing an ever smaller piece of pie. You pretty much have to become a pathological liar to advance in corporate America. A fair days wage for a days work was probably always a lie too. Wife's head is buried in TV fantasy soap operas. Somehow its my responsibility to provide a lavish lifestyle even though she's more educated. That's the hoot about American education right now. Women have all these opportunities to become over-educated and no social pressure to do anything with them. Got a doctorate, then start pumping out kids. just finished med school, you deserve a man to take care of you. Its fucked because I don't know one relationship that has survived the woman being the primary bread winner. If your a man and your wife makes more than you. You're looked down upon. period. even if its behind your back.

Im so tired. i don't know ho much longer im hanging in there. Not any time soon, not going to let the dog down. But i'm not going to grow old in this country. I see the hate in these kids eyes. It's going to be much worse here in 10+ years. The globalists have been playing the long game for decades. America will be like that torched restaurant in Goodfellas. They were signing away our futures with their right hand while waiving a flag in the left. always remember nobility largely only exists in fiction. Its the lie that propels society forward.
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I moved from Denver Colorado (where I was born and raised and lived for 31 years) before moving to rural Oregon 22 years ago, and became a hermit.

To survive and thrive in Satan's world, you need to do his will, and play HIS game. A "success" in the world's eyes, is a wretched lost soul, in God's eyes.

As the illegals and scum-sucking Kalifornians continue continue to stream into rural Oregon (it used to just be the I-5 corridor), and INFECT the state with their anti-American libscum ideologies, it's becoming clear that I am going to have to move again.

But where? I always look to Alaska, but Alaska is for the young and tough. I'm almost 54 now, and if I move to Alaska, it will have to be SE Alaska, and I will be happy if I simply have enough food and a MOUNTAIN of firewood.

I can't stand being around people. I don't trust a ONE of 'em. I love peace and solitude. Liberals love turmoil and chaos. I hate liberals more than anything in this galaxy. So I do the right thing, and have NOTHING to do with them.

A lot of people tolerate them, and even remain friends with them, even if they totally disagree with them. Myself, I will NOT. I won't have ANYTHING to do with them. They are NOT Americans. They are indoctrinated, totally brainwashed, ENEMIES of common sense, reason, logic, and truth. They are dangerous enemies of freedom.

I would rather spend the rest of my life TOTALLY alone, rather than play the game, and remain part of this sick, twisted, evil "society".
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For every raw road there is a bright spot.

Or

Change.

or a little of both.
You cannot destroy my vision when you see my vision undestroyed because I am just an undestroyer.

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I'm right there with you. It's time to "Go Galt".
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Galt


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INFJ; We are the protectors; One Percent of the population.

We put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities.

We know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. We are usually right, and we usually know it.

[link to www.personalitypage.com]

Pluto In Twelfth House: Personality

Pluto in twelfth house, you are able to read between the lines and see deeper into any dark situation. You are always interested in analyzing conflicts when they arise and you want to find out why they happen. You also want to know the resolution that fits best, and you look at both the positive and negative aspects of the conflict.

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I had a very enlightening experience some time ago that changed my perspective of Life ...

imagine two people, living in the exact same environment - making equal pay, doing what they liked doing ... only one person was completely miserable, and the other was blissfully happy with their circumstances


like the OP - the miserale individual in this true story, found faults in everything - including the things that the partner found rewarding ...and didn't appreciate anything ...

predictably, the fault finder, became self destructive --- while at the same time, his partner, became self creative ---
in the exact same environment ...


- and even though they eventually grew apart ... he remained miserable - and she remained happy .... nothing changed that, because that is what they CHOOSE to experience




YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE
and no one to blame but yourself, if you are miserable
 Quoting: Sunny Daze








Or....

The wisest man who ever lived (aside from Christ) has an accurate perspective:


"For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow."
Terrebonne
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We do this !!!


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Sitting on Top of the World



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INFJ; We are the protectors; One Percent of the population.

We put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities.

We know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. We are usually right, and we usually know it.

[link to www.personalitypage.com]

Pluto In Twelfth House: Personality

Pluto in twelfth house, you are able to read between the lines and see deeper into any dark situation. You are always interested in analyzing conflicts when they arise and you want to find out why they happen. You also want to know the resolution that fits best, and you look at both the positive and negative aspects of the conflict.

[link to www.sunsigns.org]

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I fucked up. My wife is very controlled by her surviving family. She can't barely take a shit without phoning for permission. I'm not very close to my family, Im respectful but I had a not-great childhood. My parents were very young and selfish and once they divorced they wanted us kids to just go away. the experiment was over so to speak. But many had much worse so i don't dwell on that. Im respectful for all they did do. But im not very well respected as a leader in my wifes eyes. overall she looks to her family for guidance. Im not sure if i can fix that or if i even have the willing energy at this point. I feel very much like a single parent a lot. i do agree i need to fix it. Its rough when your barely holding on.

^^^ Ok - I understand. Try not to ruminate on this. Sometimes we make uniformed decisions when we are young - or we do not have the real picture of the circumstances. You might have even felt that relationship your wife had with her family was refreshing coming from a less defined family of upbringing. Only now you see it for what it is - a prison.

She is wrong by the way to put them first and be codependent and controlled. I think its a kind of sickness. I am not religious per say but even the Bible talks about how it is supposed to go when we marry. The first step should be that it is ADULTS getting married that are not still functioning in some kind of long line of generational curse that won't allow maturity to come along.

You should grasp the hand of your partner when you wed and basically start your own journey as a couple. This just doesn't happen, and we are not really set up as a culture to nurture that.

Instead you have a big constructed mess of situation - and then we have a culture that now builds a financial trap around us - its a fucking mess.

So - try not to dispare too much now since you allude to being a single parent there are children in this situation. They come first. But there will be a time and years will pass - so in the mean time - escape to those youtube videos and researching options and make a plan like you are leaving the "Old Country" and going to a new land - make plan A and plan B - and chart a course - even if it is dreams and wishful thinking stuff it can plant a seed of hope that gets you through these darker times.

hf
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You hit dead on with that. Her last surviving family member is battling out cancer so the circumstances may change quickly and she may need a lot of support. There are no kids in the picture. Never had any because we never had time. Between careers and family most free time is spoken for. About an hour of free time a night and not much more on the weekends. Silly things like a family members birthday is an all day affair. The family has to be around each other consistently it drives me crazy. But who am i to judge when im the one feeling crappy. I appreciate the advice. Very good stuff I will be thinking about. i didn't get here overnight and I wont repair it overnight. Or maybe one day Ill just runaway and assume a new identity lol.
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You're miserable. So is your wife, if she wants a "leader", and doesn't consider you to be a leader, and aligns herself with her family rather than her spouse.

So what are you going to do? Hang around until a kid pops into this dually unhappy picture, and then decide it was all a big mistake? And then piss and moan when you find yourself a prisoner of the so called "child protection" system?

SMDH that your aren't using yours.
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Go rent a whore and just take everything out on it.
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That's not that bad really. Maybe we could switch places and see if you like my lifestyle?
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For every raw road there is a bright spot.

Or

Change.

or a little of both.
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What would be your recommendations for short term considering:

Cant drive- breach of bail
expected to be in another town to sign weekly parole papers today
need vehicle for random grape picking jobs in area
cannot leave the state I dont belong in, due to bail conditions....

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When someone sings in National Anthem

"WE ARE YOUNG AND FREE"

Can I now beat the living fucking daylights out that stoopid inbred cuntslapper??
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For every raw road there is a bright spot.

Or

Change.

or a little of both.
 Quoting: Undestroyer


What would be your recommendations for short term considering:

Cant drive- breach of bail
expected to be in another town to sign weekly parole papers today
need vehicle for random grape picking jobs in area
cannot leave the state I dont belong in, due to bail conditions....
 Quoting: fred also


Go to ground.
Get your feet.
walk slowly .

Do not let the problems of the world cloud your own basic needs/responsibilities. Rather this is the first priority.

Ride a bike or take a bus do what it takes to not break the law.

look for other job opportunities. Gain new skills. Make new contacts. Create value.
You cannot destroy my vision when you see my vision undestroyed because I am just an undestroyer.

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I fucked up. My wife is very controlled by her surviving family. She can't barely take a shit without phoning for permission. I'm not very close to my family, Im respectful but I had a not-great childhood. My parents were very young and selfish and once they divorced they wanted us kids to just go away. the experiment was over so to speak. But many had much worse so i don't dwell on that. Im respectful for all they did do. But im not very well respected as a leader in my wifes eyes. overall she looks to her family for guidance. Im not sure if i can fix that or if i even have the willing energy at this point. I feel very much like a single parent a lot. i do agree i need to fix it. Its rough when your barely holding on.

^^^ Ok - I understand. Try not to ruminate on this. Sometimes we make uniformed decisions when we are young - or we do not have the real picture of the circumstances. You might have even felt that relationship your wife had with her family was refreshing coming from a less defined family of upbringing. Only now you see it for what it is - a prison.

She is wrong by the way to put them first and be codependent and controlled. I think its a kind of sickness. I am not religious per say but even the Bible talks about how it is supposed to go when we marry. The first step should be that it is ADULTS getting married that are not still functioning in some kind of long line of generational curse that won't allow maturity to come along.

You should grasp the hand of your partner when you wed and basically start your own journey as a couple. This just doesn't happen, and we are not really set up as a culture to nurture that.

Instead you have a big constructed mess of situation - and then we have a culture that now builds a financial trap around us - its a fucking mess.

So - try not to dispare too much now since you allude to being a single parent there are children in this situation. They come first. But there will be a time and years will pass - so in the mean time - escape to those youtube videos and researching options and make a plan like you are leaving the "Old Country" and going to a new land - make plan A and plan B - and chart a course - even if it is dreams and wishful thinking stuff it can plant a seed of hope that gets you through these darker times.

hf
 Quoting: Starbird


You hit dead on with that. Her last surviving family member is battling out cancer so the circumstances may change quickly and she may need a lot of support. There are no kids in the picture. Never had any because we never had time. Between careers and family most free time is spoken for. About an hour of free time a night and not much more on the weekends. Silly things like a family members birthday is an all day affair. The family has to be around each other consistently it drives me crazy. But who am i to judge when im the one feeling crappy. I appreciate the advice. Very good stuff I will be thinking about. i didn't get here overnight and I wont repair it overnight. Or maybe one day Ill just runaway and assume a new identity lol.
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You're miserable. So is your wife, if she wants a "leader", and doesn't consider you to be a leader, and aligns herself with her family rather than her spouse.

So what are you going to do? Hang around until a kid pops into this dually unhappy picture, and then decide it was all a big mistake? And then piss and moan when you find yourself a prisoner of the so called "child protection" system?

SMDH that your aren't using yours.
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idiot must be a mangina, his heading straight into a trap from hell.
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I moved from Denver Colorado (where I was born and raised and lived for 31 years) before moving to rural Oregon 22 years ago, and became a hermit.

To survive and thrive in Satan's world, you need to do his will, and play HIS game. A "success" in the world's eyes, is a wretched lost soul, in God's eyes.

As the illegals and scum-sucking Kalifornians continue continue to stream into rural Oregon (it used to just be the I-5 corridor), and INFECT the state with their anti-American libscum ideologies, it's becoming clear that I am going to have to move again.

But where? I always look to Alaska, but Alaska is for the young and tough. I'm almost 54 now, and if I move to Alaska, it will have to be SE Alaska, and I will be happy if I simply have enough food and a MOUNTAIN of firewood.

I can't stand being around people. I don't trust a ONE of 'em. I love peace and solitude. Liberals love turmoil and chaos. I hate liberals more than anything in this galaxy. So I do the right thing, and have NOTHING to do with them.

A lot of people tolerate them, and even remain friends with them, even if they totally disagree with them. Myself, I will NOT. I won't have ANYTHING to do with them. They are NOT Americans. They are indoctrinated, totally brainwashed, ENEMIES of common sense, reason, logic, and truth. They are dangerous enemies of freedom.

I would rather spend the rest of my life TOTALLY alone, rather than play the game, and remain part of this sick, twisted, evil "society".



it's a sad state of affairs to make that leap of faith. live alone till you kick the bucket or mingle with satans
offspring who are worst than ant bites.
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Middle aged IT worker. I see the bad in everything. I see the lies and boogeymen people create to elevate themselves to hero status. Its the marvelization of society. If you can make demographic X evil that equates yourself to hero status. Everyone is practicing it now. Everything is so fucked up now. Im not seeing the point to being miserable anymore. At work I'm chasing an ever smaller piece of pie. You pretty much have to become a pathological liar to advance in corporate America. A fair days wage for a days work was probably always a lie too. Wife's head is buried in TV fantasy soap operas. Somehow its my responsibility to provide a lavish lifestyle even though she's more educated. That's the hoot about American education right now. Women have all these opportunities to become over-educated and no social pressure to do anything with them. Got a doctorate, then start pumping out kids. just finished med school, you deserve a man to take care of you. Its fucked because I don't know one relationship that has survived the woman being the primary bread winner. If your a man and your wife makes more than you. You're looked down upon. period. even if its behind your back.

Im so tired. i don't know ho much longer im hanging in there. Not any time soon, not going to let the dog down. But i'm not going to grow old in this country. I see the hate in these kids eyes. It's going to be much worse here in 10+ years. The globalists have been playing the long game for decades. America will be like that torched restaurant in Goodfellas. They were signing away our futures with their right hand while waiving a flag in the left. always remember nobility largely only exists in fiction. Its the lie that propels society forward.
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You are not alone
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Go to ground.
Get your feet.
walk slowly .

Do not let the problems of the world cloud your own basic needs/responsibilities. Rather this is the first priority.

Ride a bike or take a bus do what it takes to not break the law.

look for other job opportunities. Gain new skills. Make new contacts. Create value.
 Quoting: Undestroyer


The point that u missed

I am breaking law no matter what I do

Oppression + revenue raising
Means I cant relax, ever
So when I finally have to kill a cop
To stay alive
Theyll make it look like
It was my fault
I am surrounded by hypocrites
And your advise is beyond useless

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They need to fill prisons
And to reduce the black/ratio
More whites are needed

I wont survive prison
So I either die
Or kill as many dirty fag cops
Before I kill myself
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Oh and fine I got yesterday
Was $1000 for driving defect vehicle
Which they can book me for everyday
I have nowhere to stay

Fuck all u cunts
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Yep the first cop I see
I drive that ass fucking cunt over
He dead

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Yep that's a threat
Verifiable
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Defected cos my seatbelt is frayed at bottom

They good at preventing
Victimless crimes



Splattered cops guts will have to be cleaned

This blood is on your all your hands
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Go to ground.
Get your feet.
walk slowly .

Do not let the problems of the world cloud your own basic needs/responsibilities. Rather this is the first priority.

Ride a bike or take a bus do what it takes to not break the law.

look for other job opportunities. Gain new skills. Make new contacts. Create value.
 Quoting: Undestroyer


The point that u missed

I am breaking law no matter what I do

Oppression + revenue raising
Means I cant relax, ever
So when I finally have to kill a cop
To stay alive
Theyll make it look like
It was my fault
I am surrounded by hypocrites
And your advise is beyond useless
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Look idk you that well but I understand your arrogance better than I'd like to.

Trust me if you cannot handle and take care of yourself without causing some ordeal and ruckus the system will put you down... Maybe you are drinking too much idk...

The smart play is to lay low.

It takes skills and a working vehicle that's clean with no problems to drive under the radar... Don't fool yourself.

You should think outside the box and murder should be the last thing on your mind.
You cannot destroy my vision when you see my vision undestroyed because I am just an undestroyer.

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Lay low is your best advise
U r weak
U should die first
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Scum gonna scum.

Have fun wrecking yourself fool.
You cannot destroy my vision when you see my vision undestroyed because I am just an undestroyer.

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Middle aged IT worker. I see the bad in everything. I see the lies and boogeymen people create to elevate themselves to hero status. Its the marvelization of society. If you can make demographic X evil that equates yourself to hero status. Everyone is practicing it now. Everything is so fucked up now. Im not seeing the point to being miserable anymore. At work I'm chasing an ever smaller piece of pie. You pretty much have to become a pathological liar to advance in corporate America. A fair days wage for a days work was probably always a lie too. Wife's head is buried in TV fantasy soap operas. Somehow its my responsibility to provide a lavish lifestyle even though she's more educated. That's the hoot about American education right now. Women have all these opportunities to become over-educated and no social pressure to do anything with them. Got a doctorate, then start pumping out kids. just finished med school, you deserve a man to take care of you. Its fucked because I don't know one relationship that has survived the woman being the primary bread winner. If your a man and your wife makes more than you. You're looked down upon. period. even if its behind your back.

Im so tired. i don't know ho much longer im hanging in there. Not any time soon, not going to let the dog down. But i'm not going to grow old in this country. I see the hate in these kids eyes. It's going to be much worse here in 10+ years. The globalists have been playing the long game for decades. America will be like that torched restaurant in Goodfellas. They were signing away our futures with their right hand while waiving a flag in the left. always remember nobility largely only exists in fiction. Its the lie that propels society forward.
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You have it all straight.
Americas been vivisected for the benefit of one group of congenital criminals.
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What your wife is waitng for is a high status male to take her to the promised land.
You're not going to keep anything of value shared in common.
You better turn down any lifestyle expenditures because her divorse lawyer will use that as a baseline for your child and spousal support obligations.

Sorry to be the bearer of more bad news.
Do not get her pregnant, she will want that before she finally ejects from your life
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War on a drastic scale involving everyone will at least bring the majority of the populace down to a level playing field. I suspect it will happen much sooner than everyone thinks. Perhaps with "everyone" just barely holding on we will all start to realize we need each other and start providing compassion. If not then we all eventually die and the world simply moves on without humans. I personally am of the opinion that world war is very very close to popping off. Once this happens the entire economy will most likely stall or outright cease to function. People will be more concerned with survival than being forced to slave for a paycheck. I am starting to think that the President is angling, or being forced into declaring this war.
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Fat chance of that. Families will be divided.

I get in arguments with my nephew, who is some kind of psychotic weasel. I have always been very generous with him and his sisters since they were small.

A few yeast ago, he was an adult man living in his mother's house, after she had moved out. Living for free, and mostly unemployed.

He ran the house into the ground. Every inch of it was caked with filth and filled with more flies than you can imagine. Almost all of the windows were broken and the doors were falling off their hinges. Water from the pipes was leaking into the dank, and musty basement, which was full of wet clothes on the floor and all sorts of garbage. The bathroom was filthy and completely trashed, with a broken sink and a rotten hole, more than a foot wide right in front of the toilet. The house should have been condemned.

At my own expense, nearly five thousand dollars, and thousands of hours of labor, I managed to clean the house, fix the bathroom, the leaky pipes, the windows including installing new storm windows, the yard, demolish and rebuild the front porch, and a host of other things, too numerous to mention.

Before I left, I let him have a lot of my stuff, including an expensive stereo system, and a large flat-screen TV, among other things like tools, leather jackets, a table saw, etc.

While I was working on the house, he offered no help, and I was constantly having to clean up after him and his parties. He spent most of his time drunk and stoned. He never even thanked me, and started crying about me paying rent. In a rotten little house that couldn't even legally be rented, where I slept in a large closet sized room in the back while he slept in the master bedroom, I paid him $200.00 per month, but I would have preferred to use the money for materials. I had to quit working when I ran out of money for materials, and I spent the next for months sorting through my stuff, and selling what I couldn't take with me.

Everyone knew for all those months that I was planning to leave, and packing and repacking my car to see how much I could bring with me. I had to leave some things that I couldn't bring with, so I packed them in boxes, ready for shipping, and I told my nephew that I would either send for them when I got a place, or return and pick them up.

When I returned half a year later, my nephew acted distressed and weird, and started accusing me of stealing his stuff. He had to paw through every box I removed, but none of his stuff was in it.

Then he started accusing me of stealing a book of his that he couldn't find. A stupid, little, worthless book! I told him I didn't take it, but he kept insisting I did. I told him that someone had put books that were on shelves in the living room into the basement, and it was probably there. No, he kept insisting I stole it, and he was telling his mother and everyone I stole his book. For months, he kept bitching at me about stealing his book, and when I asked him if he looked in the basement, he claimed he had, and it wasn't there.

A few months ago, I looked around in the basement and found his book. Vindicated with proof, and does anyone even imagine that the very next thing I said to him was that I found his book in the basement where I said it probably was? His reaction was surprising. He just shrugged and said "oh". There was no apology for slandering me.

I am currently sleeping on my sister's couch and planning to go homeless, since I can't find a job. While I had a very wretched, minimum wage job, which didn't pay me enough to find a place of my own, and which was most of last year, I paid my sister $240.00 per month, a third of the rent, to sleep on the couch, and all along, I did most of the housework.

So now I can't pay rent, as I sort out my stuff and try to figure out what I need and what I can carry when I go. I'm still buying my own food and doing most of the house work, and trying not to impose on my sister. I never asked for compensation for the $5000.00 in materials I spent on her house, or any compensation for the thousands of hours of very exhausting and dirty labor on her house.

Yet, after I lost my job, my nephew showed up and started telling me to get a job and contribute. He was talking like the big, swinging dick and lord of the manner, and saying that everyone takes advantage of his mother and I was being a freeloader. Did I need to remind him that he didn't own the whole house he was living in for free? He was the only person present who was still taking advantage of his mother, as he had for many years, while destroying her house.

He was impervious to logic and reason. Nothing I said to him even registered. He just rocked back in his chair, grinning at me, rubbing his fingers together, and saying I had to pay cash.

He really seemed to be acting like his mother's pimp.

Last weekend, we had another argument when I found out he had been telling lies about the book. He had been telling everyone he found the book in a box that I was trying to sneak out of the house with, and he cleverly contrived to ask me about it, and I then reluctantly confessed that I found it. My sister apparently even believed the fabrication. She is not that stupid.

We got in another argument and he recounted his completely delusional version of events. He claimed I had just up and disappeared without telling anyone, and that I had assured him that I would take care of the house and everything. It was completely strange and delusional. I now believe he is a completely deranged psychopath. Something is very very wrong with his brain. Too much drugs? Too much booze? I don't know. Maybe he is simply evil. I have observed that he likes to gaslight people - just about everyone. It is no wonder that his roommate left all of a sudden without notice, at a time when he kept telling me I could kick out his roommate. I had to keep telling him I didn't want to kick out his roommate, and that I liked him. He was a cool guy. His roommate never told me he was leaving, but he left behind many clues and messages that he thought my nephew was evil - really and genuinely evil.

I want to get as far away from that incestuous band of lunatics as I can.

If things are as bad in other families - it is getting very bad.
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Sorry for your stituation. Just know that you did the best that you could. It is a mess that you can't fix. Accept that. Your nephew is obviously spoiled and your sister is still spoiling him. He will never accept responsibility for himself. You did all that work for under 5K? Man, you have a skill set that you don't even realize! People always need a good Handy Man!
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Middle aged IT worker. I see the bad in everything. I see the lies and boogeymen people create to elevate themselves to hero status. Its the marvelization of society. If you can make demographic X evil that equates yourself to hero status. Everyone is practicing it now. Everything is so fucked up now. Im not seeing the point to being miserable anymore. At work I'm chasing an ever smaller piece of pie. You pretty much have to become a pathological liar to advance in corporate America. A fair days wage for a days work was probably always a lie too. Wife's head is buried in TV fantasy soap operas. Somehow its my responsibility to provide a lavish lifestyle even though she's more educated. That's the hoot about American education right now. Women have all these opportunities to become over-educated and no social pressure to do anything with them. Got a doctorate, then start pumping out kids. just finished med school, you deserve a man to take care of you. Its fucked because I don't know one relationship that has survived the woman being the primary bread winner. If your a man and your wife makes more than you. You're looked down upon. period. even if its behind your back.

Im so tired. i don't know ho much longer im hanging in there. Not any time soon, not going to let the dog down. But i'm not going to grow old in this country. I see the hate in these kids eyes. It's going to be much worse here in 10+ years. The globalists have been playing the long game for decades. America will be like that torched restaurant in Goodfellas. They were signing away our futures with their right hand while waiving a flag in the left. always remember nobility largely only exists in fiction. Its the lie that propels society forward.
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Excellent post OP. Please stay here and let's chat.

For one thing, the globalists are the problem. They will push their agenda even if it means WW3. I will not submit and neither should you. I was in a similar situation a few years back -- married, kids, 9-5 job, providing a lavish life.

Wife and I decided to sell our expensive home in NJ and move to Florida. BEST decision ever. First, we made out bandits on the house sale we managed to sell in 2011 when both of us lost our jobs. We could buy 4 homes in Florida for what we sold our house for in NJ. Second, property taxes are 1/4th what they were in NJ.

Now, we work less and spend more time with the kids and we love life. Until the day comes when the globalists take over, we're going to live the good life. Salt Life.
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THIS IS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!!!
Make a CHANGE!!!

Even if you have to ride a grey hound bus to do it.
If you are church person - show up - ask for help if you need it - be willing to do anything - be willing to get dirty and work physically if you have to.

BUT MAKE A CHANGE.
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I fucked up. My wife is very controlled by her surviving family. She can't barely take a shit without phoning for permission. I'm not very close to my family, Im respectful but I had a not-great childhood. My parents were very young and selfish and once they divorced they wanted us kids to just go away. the experiment was over so to speak. But many had much worse so i don't dwell on that. Im respectful for all they did do. But im not very well respected as a leader in my wifes eyes. overall she looks to her family for guidance. Im not sure if i can fix that or if i even have the willing energy at this point. I feel very much like a single parent a lot. i do agree i need to fix it. Its rough when your barely holding on.
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Your wife isnt going to get or keep any doctor position with that personality at all.


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