My quest in the unknown/spiritual/paranormal world began over 10 years ago. Back then I really committed myself to finding out what was going on out there. I knocked on many many doors, looked into many many things and read my butt off. Yes I do know more, Yes I can see what others don't see and Yes I have grown immensely form it. But I'm sick of it....I'm sick of living on the fringe, sick of going out to a bar not being able to enjoy myself because I can see pass all the social construct BS, tired of having a progressively harder time to find "real" (non IP based) people to which I can honestly speak from my heart. Funny thing is that the deeper I dig the more questions arise, its never freaking ending. Always on the watch of my own consciousness to not go coo coo puff on me and end up drooling in a psych ward.

Why o Why is the path to Gnosis so painful and lonely? (I know the answer...and that also pisses me off!) Probably better off with the blue pill?

PS...no, Im not gonna blow my brains out.