What do you think your last thought will be right before you die?

I did have the experience. I was waiting for surgery and had a few moments to think about the fact that I might not wake up. (The doctor was actually having a smoke in the hall) I dreaded not seeing my husband again. I hurt that he would not have me to take care of him.

Then, during the surgery...I did die...all on record! I remember being up in the air and looking at myself...with very little remorse. All I wanted to do was get the hell away from that body and out the damn door. The people working on me were having a bad time of it...tools were dropping on the floor...yelling etc. But I heard nothing. The door kept opening but I could not get out of the room. I did not care a bit about my family. I had the general understanding that they were all going to be fine. Everything was going to be fine. I had no feelings of missing them at all! I was happy, but could not get out of the room.

It even crossed my mind that I was a spirit and could go through walls...but I could not. When I came to...I was holding my breath as hard as I could. I felt the cold heavy weight pull me into itself. The nurses were slapping me and telling me to breath. I cried, but not at the pain or fear. I cried because I was forced to come back inside that hunk of cold, hard, heavy, flesh.

Later they came to my room with a portable x-ray unit to check everything they said. I did not want them to move me and demanded to know why. One confessed they had lost a "towel clip" and were afraid it was still in me. I told them where it was. It had dropped to the floor and skittered across the base board and landed upright against the leg of a table. A girl went to see and returned with the clip. We went through the usual "how did you know" crap but I saw it happen and they just had to face that fact.
I have never feared death again. I am also happy when I hear of someone who died. I am happy for them. It happened again years later in about my 6th surgery...but that is another story.

what's this button for?

Don't press that! It's the history eraser button!!

Is this my last breath?

Is this my last breath?

Is this my last breath?

Is this my last breath?

Is this my last breath?

(You get what I'm trying to say?)

I've always wondered if the "light at the end of the tunnel" is actually the light of the delivery room as we are being re-born out of the vaginal canal.... The removal of a baby from it's embryonic fluids and sac would be similar to a hard drive going through some magnetic machine wiping the hard drive clean.. But there are always "ghosts in the machine" like memories that aren't fully gone. Some people can actually "data mine" and bring back a couple faded memories....


Just a thought.

Thanks for the story. So basically you were stuck in the same room as your body during the experience. But outside of it. Very interesting.
What is your surgery for?

Constant repair of small intestines over the years. Only a little left now

"Well this blows" comes to mind.

From the wrong diet?

the final sound a gun?

You had a couple NDE's?

This fall, when I was sure I was having a heart attack, all I could think about was.. "damn it, why didn't I take out that supplemental life policy ..for the kids?"

I'll smile and whisper "Freedom."