I need some inspiration that’s not artificial.

Using cannabis makes a lot of boring tasks easier

I never found it boring, but I haven’t touched a canvas or my guitar in 3 months after quitting. Now I just feel blasé about the entire creative aspect of music or painting.

Katla.

I fail to see how an Icelandic volcano could inspire, but at this point I’m open to it.

Try sitting in a cabin or in a tent out in the woods and hearing the rain fall around you, with your eyes closed.

I hike a lot, spent the last nice weekend we have around here nestled under the base of a volcano. Came home with nothing.

Now it’s raining, and won’t stop until next year.

Last time I felt truly inspired and in bliss I was sitting on a ship in July, in Bristol bay, watching the sunset at 12am. I left my guitar in Washington, wrote some lyrics though, and when I got home they have been sitting on my bookshelf since.

I thought quitting would be good, in a career sense it has. I landed a great job and am loving what I do, but now I don’t do what I used to love.

ive been chasing ghosts. they are artificial as so am i

They are the Muses. I wonder if they are fickle or is it me.

I sold myself for a job, because my body has to eat, but now my soul starves.

Mt. St. Helens. Really? LOL. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)]

Ive been beating myself up for not doing any video editing/ trying to get better at it. This is my ode to you OP. The feels are the same. The stresses of life along with the burnout and risks [anxiety] of failure have shattered my creativity.

That’s beautiful, thanks.

I love my family, my son is everything to me and my wife.

I feel guilty on days/nights like this when I just want to play something conducive to my feelings but my fingers and mind won’t relay my heart. Makes me feel like it was easier when I kicked back, smoked some weed and jammed all weekend without a worry.

Mortgages and bills put a blight on my mood, especially without marijuana.

That’s what I’m saying, why does the world we live in create such a struggle on creativity and living harmoniously. If I don’t work my son starves, my wife has to bear the burden of all our bills? I can’t do that to them, I won’t.

For what it worth I liked that video though man. Keep editing, I’ll keep playing and painting, and the world can keep spinning.

Is Katla erupting right now? I haven’t even looked at volcanodiscovery in months. Been consumed with work and beating myself up on my off time.

Just going to go to bed, be thankful for what I do have and try to squeeze some creativity out of this weekend tomorrow.

If you limit the concept of "creativity" to certain specific activities, most of which are incredibly tedious, then of course there are conflicts.
I edited an entire movie once. Cleaning out manure was more fun and rewarding.
You can be creative in anything you do.

Have you ever tried music programming?

[link to en.wikipedia.org (secure)]


Maybe the stuff you did before you turned sober just simply no longer inspires you?


Maybe you would want to try out something different and more expansive???

:)

I used to play guitar and write music on that.... but then I took up audio programming to make music..... and like.... I haven't been interested enough to play the guitar on more than one occasion since :P

Like.. to me :P... music programming is gonna be a huge thing

it kinda already is

You need to find something new to love.
if you are choosing to move on from somethings it may just be natural to move on from others as well... you'll figure it out.


or maybe your hipster scarf is too tight?

Lol Jk.. but when I read you post I pictured a guy with a beard with one of those hair cuts that's longer on top and shaved on the sides... with the all swept to one side. The guy was wearing a red pad shirt with a stupid black scarf

Have you ever wanted to create an AI which makes it's own music?

Like... you can do that with audio programming languages

That's how we get all those new old albums

wot

I’m interested, I will check it out in the morning, thanks for recommending this.

I feel depressed without the drive I used to have, but I’m no hipster. I work as a tankerman on tugs in the Columbia, and spend most of my summers in Alaska. I can hold my own, doesn’t mean I don’t have feelings and get down though. I just haven’t felt much like myself since I committed to a title and responsibility that requires no marijuana, spending time away from home, and less drive to do what I thought I loved. Maybe your right though, I should branch out and stop traveling the same road. Plenty of other hobbies out there.

So, you're saying you are a Rockstar at heart?

what about starting excavating, like mining ore wherever you want?

No problem

If you want some learning materials.... here they are

[link to rhoadley.net]

^I used the above pdf to learn SuperCollider.... but like... you might like this book too.... I haven't used it tho... but I might read it actually now :) [link to ccrma.stanford.edu (secure)]

I think the second link, "a gentle intro..."... is more geared towards Supercollider itself... but I haven't read it :P

Lol awww I was only kidding about the hipster thing.

and transitioning through any stage of life can be difficult for a little while. Venture off into something new that you can get excited about and then after a while you may come back to guitar.

I've always drawn and painted. After I got married and was getting into the swing of that. I found d it really difficult to be inspired. I mean I was happy with how life was going its just I couldn't get in my groove ya know. So I taught myself to knint. dove head first into that for a while.... until I had a child.

life will take you all over if you let it

You need exercise to keep your blood flowing and eat healthy foods especially fruits and vegs to get your strength back.

I'm changing too, my body rejecting solid foods which is unusual for a meat eater but I do feel far more happier eating fruits and vegs.

Stay away from junks especially gmo, sugar and chemically modified junks, eat healthy and exercise.

Drink water, D3 5-10k ui softgell and magnesium caps.

Only if your social credit is good otherwise it only takes you to Cleveland.

Maybe you need to write a Spiritual Song , ask God not us ...Prayers for you