I Suspect that my Narcissistic Mother was Poisoning or Drugging me

You guys are so right. Psychopaths are master manipulators. My daughter has spun so many lies for so many years and has almost everyone fooled into thinking she is a poor sweet little angel and I am the bad one. Only the other people she has poisoned would believe me. I have no proof to call the authorities. She has everyone conned. She has cost me so much, I can not begin to tell how she has destroyed my finances, cost me jobs, my home, my reputation, my health and what ever damage the poisons over so many years may have caused. I know she used more than one kind, but antifreeze I know for sure. I have thought of trying to get her to confess again and tape it. But I do not want to use it to put her in jail but force her to get mental help and come clean with all her lies and wrong doings. It is not repent if you are forced into it.

You guys are so right. Psychopaths are master manipulators. My daughter has spun so many lies for so many years and has almost everyone fooled into thinking she is a poor sweet little angel and I am the bad one. Only the other people she has poisoned would believe me. I have no proof to call the authorities. She has everyone conned. She has cost me so much, I can not begin to tell how she has destroyed my finances, cost me jobs, my home, my reputation, my health and what ever damage the poisons over so many years may have caused. I know she used more than one kind, but antifreeze I know for sure. I have thought of trying to get her to confess again and tape it. But I do not want to use it to put her in jail but force her to get mental help and come clean with all her lies and wrong doings. It is not repent if you are forced into it.

So, a child was putting antifreeze in your food? Why didn't you just put it in a locked cabinet? (the antifreeze, not the child)

The Mother was poisoning them.

You dont forgive that.Just as bad as a Pedo abusing you,again you wouldn't forgive that either.

Narcissists will use whatever is at hand. You can't lock up anything, they will steal poison from the neighbors to carry out their deeds.

And Narcissists set up their alibis very deeply, no one would ever believe they did anything wrong. Eventually they will commit murder, and get away with it.

I'm positive my husband killed my mother, while I was out of town taking care of my dad. I even told my psych about it. There was nothing we could do. No one really cares... it's a domestic issue.

She is in her 30's. She has never had any abuse, not even verbal. She was born off in some way I could never fix or figure out, I loved and treated her the same but she always needed extra attention and supervision. I never left them with baby sitters, daycare or relatives. She is very smart with high IQ but not used in a good way.

For many years since I was a teenager, I would always get severe stomach cramps, vomit, and generally feel weird. I never realized why, since it happened so much and so often... I thought I was just unhealthy or unlucky.

Well, after I moved out at 26 on my own, I started noticing that my stomach was not getting cramps like they used to -- no more getting sick. And it had been over 4 years now and not once have I gotten sick as I did when I loved with her.

The thing is, my mom is a highly malignant narcissist; basically sadistic. She has tried to convince me that I was depressed before, and has begged me to take some of HER antidepressant pills. I refused, and still never willingly took any SSRI drugs to this day.

I say willingly because I suspect she was sprinkling that crap in the food she made or something, which would explain why I would often feel weird or strange.

My mom has made it very clear on a very personal level that she doesnt like me. Not in words but in a way only a malignant narcissist can.

I don't think I can confront her because i have no concrete proof other than my sick and weird feeling for YEARS every week up until after I moved put and everything abruptly stopped.

And let me add, that when I moved out (far away), she was angry and furious and cold hearted about it.

So I guess I just go no contact with her for the rest of my life and thank God she didnt end up killing me.

you must forgive
forgiveness frees the victim/receiver of wrong
atonement frees the causer/giver of wrong

Okay you are the definition of being paranoid. Or wanting some kind of sick attention so you come online and put down your mom. Either way I'm sure she is quite relieved you FINALLY moved out at age 26.
If you absolutely thought she was poisoning you, you would not have stayed that long. Some on here may buy your words, but not everyone was born yesterday. Grow up.

My break is over but I will be back. This is the first time I have been able to seriously talk about this to anyone. Thank you so much. I do not know what to do, I rack my brain all the time trying to figure out something. I can not let her do this to others. I know she poised her co workers and some of them suspected it to.

good for you for breaking the bond and moving out.

But you NEED to forgive her, no matter if she confesses or not. You need to understand that she probably had even worse parents and literally couldn't help herself.

"Forgive them for they know not what they do"


If you do not forgive her you will dwell on these memories and never truly move on with your life.

I'm not forgiving shit. The guy tried to murder me. God can judge them.

I have forgiven myself and am free. It was never my fault as for many years (40) I was led to believe.

Bottom line?

You think there is poison in your food? DONT EAT IT!


Period.

How is that hard to do? Every time! You eat alone!
Problem solved.

Classic mental delusion problem solved.

Something about this last one (not OP) just screams narcissist covering up as a victim to me.

Who lets a 5 or 10 year old poison them "over the years"?

Also, them not letting the children spend time with babysitters or other family members, but "only them" raises major red flags.

You missed the info about my daughter being an adult in her 30's, not a child.

I did not have other family to help, my husband died before she had a chance to know him or suffer the loss and she was too much for anyone to handle, no baby sitter came back twice.

So, she needed a babysitter in her 30s?

Why were you living in her home with no way to cook for yourself "for many years" while she was in her thirties?

I'm sorry. But you genuinely sound like a narcissist trying to play your own victim.

Could you please tell your story in a way that makes sense?

At what age did your child start reaching for the antifreeze to poison you and why did you not lock it in a cupboard?

No we both have our own homes. I bought a house for her when she was 21 and pregnant so she could have a stable home of her own. You are way off track. Please re read the posts if you want to help. I need all the help I can find, not trying to offend you.

You say she poisoned you "for many years."

What age was she when this started and ended?

If you were able to buy a house for her, why did you move in and become so dependent that you needed her to cook every meal for you?

No we have not lived together sense she was 18. She poisoned the food she brought over for me. You are still a little lost on this.