Help me figure out a personal conspiracy?

(If you are even true at all)
You were one of many little rabbit kids. She was getting money and her group was probably competing to get the cash protocol and its done all over, new york had a kiddie hospital prison where they told them they were sick and did all kinds of sick stuff to them (its probably a much bigger one now) just another reason for high mortality among ny cops.
Rabbit kid and covering still for a serial predator wanting a real patent.


What amazes me is she lives, he knows where, he knows he was a rabbit kid and he has not stopped her in any way as she chews through more rabbits? How legit is this? I did not think rabbit kids were allowed to survive but this one is far from the first i've seen.


Thats not even near true "dr"?
I have treated tumors the size of squash that were not painful?? If cancers caused pain, people would know about them before they were zucchinis? The pain is dependent on where and people don't know or come until there is a mass grown....no pain.

That's why we're here. We know this is an incredibly bizarre and messed up world.

The scientists are only required - by law - to keep individual patient records for two or three years when it's a research project. It's made the whole thing a nightmare to dig at.

I managed to locate some documents (CPS, pediatrician, etc), but mostly it's just showing general medical abuse, nothing about cancer specifically.

Sick and twisted family member's definitely confirmed, regardless.

It's hard to know - so many illnesses are iatrogenic (caused by treatment). The important thing is to keep control of your health choices now and stay away from those trying to sabotage you.

Best of luck




















9caused by treatment)

Everyone knows what to do if you are recovering or wish to avoid disease.

Eat plenty of raw foods like carrots, broccoli, apples.
Eat them in a tasty way you enjoy. I eat baby carrots with hummus, f'rinstance.
Get exercise in a way you enjoy.
Avoid processed meats and junk like fake cheese, dips and the like.
Get plenty of sleep.
Stay away from nasty, depressing, music, tv and people.

Even if you have something, why not live well?
And living well will help you NOT to get something anyway.

I don't think I was expected to live, to be honest. But, here I am, and as annoying as ever.

The psychopath told me the same thing about cancer...she said you won't notice pain until end stage, but I wasn't going to bring that up because I don't trust info from her...also, obviously it's a case to case thing. There are a lot of different cancers attacking different systems and organs.

Most of my life I have battled games I was set up to lose.

I usually win, but it takes awhile.

Half the battle is understanding that the rules set up in front of you don't HAVE to be followed. Many of them aren't real at all, anyway.

The truth is, you already won, you just haven't figured it out yet.

A good sign is if people get mad at you for no reason.
Nothing pisses off an oppressor than a person who won't be properly oppressed.

Always good advice, but there are times when cancer needs to be treated.

The mass I had in my abdomen was attached to more than one organ, so even if it were to start shrinking, it would have just pulled the organs closer together, possibly causing more damage. I had to have it surgically removed before I could focus on organic living.

Me too. Whenever I get slightly sick I think it's going to happen all over again. I try to think of where I was exposed. It's horrifying.

Why don't you meet with a detective and discuss the situation. Have a timeline and suspicions in a narrative form of all the events. Tell them you think the new kid is in danger.

But be very sure that she cannot hurt you again. NPDs will try to kill you again. So have a strong support system.

I think you should pin it.
I bet it applies to many other children, and certainly, ALL of us today. I think many if not most medical treatments are a scam. There are studies about that. There is the profit motive for everything.

CPAP for anybody who ever snorts in their sleep.

COLONOSCOPIES FOR ALL....YAYYYY!

Vaccines.
Not to mention the polio vaccine in the 50s with the cancer-causing monkey virus.

On and on and on.
I think it is a topic that everyone should find interesting.

Well...I asked myself if you had cancer, and the answer was NO. But, I don't have a crystal ball.

I think it was about the money, and also, the woman was on a power trip.

Best to you, Opie. You have been through hell.

The other option is writing a book.

Journaling helped me figure out exactly what was going on and the poisoning. No doctors helped me either, I was misdiagnosed and passed around to other doctors.

US doctors can't report domestic violence in adults, only children and elders. There is no safety net out there.

Right?

If I felt the authorities could do something, I'd go to them. But, they've been fairly useless on everything.

When CPS did their investigation way back in the day, they were 60 pages into the report before backing off because she threatened to sue them (which they also noted in the report).

They took the current teen in her care for a few months too, then decided to hand him back.

They're just fucking idiots.

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True enough.

Although, I think someone pinned it for me.

You had a very unusual upbringing and that sort of upbringing leaves psychological scars.

Have you undertaken any counselling with regards to your history?

Parents or caretakers are our primary role models and these behaviors are templates if you will ,of our own behaviors on a subconscious and conscious level.

How much of your parental role modelling are you emulating?

To what degree has your upbringing affected your mental health?

Might you have some ongoing mental health issues as a result of your treatment as a child.?

Do you find it difficult to focus on the now, or to make future plans?

As a consequence of your past , are you always looking to the past?

Miss Cleo, this breaks my heart for you. I pray you are stronger IN SPITE of the evil that was done to you. Thank you for sharing your story, may it be a source of encouragement to help others as they battle their way thru evil such as that.

Maybe you should just tell your doctor that woman told you that you had brain cancer and eye cancer, went through treatment and ask if there is any way they can tell if you’ve had it

She sounds like she was experimenting on you like her lab rats

What a wicked person

You should call social services on her and help the teenager out since he’s sick now too

I took my lessons on humanity and family from my first mother (not the psychopath, my first mom may not have been perfect but she was a whole lot closer to normal). Those kept the light inside alive through the rest of the years.

I have PTSD, but I've been working on it and it's a dull roar these days. I've always done my best to suppress it anyway. Life needs to be lived first.

I have no issue with goals. I have no issue with supporting myself. I do those things out of the need for survival.

The last time I went to see a non-DoD shrink, the woman curled up on the sofa and had a complete mental breakdown about 15 minutes into an intake session that I had thought was fairly boring and standard. I think her doing that traumatized me regarding therapy.

Do I have a happy and flowery view of life? No. I never had a chance to experience childhood as the safe experience its supposed to be. I'm a realist. And there is no amount of brain damage that is going to make me think like the innocent three year old I never had a chance to be.

Do NOT feed the fear.
The fear is one of the payoffs.
Collect your winnings and move on.
When a piece of metal gets mangled and bent, two things happen.
Some pieces are weakened, but other pieces are strengthened by the same process.

You ARE stronger in some areas. Use this.

Stand still. Quit dithering and hold to your inner self. Listen. Maybe pray. Do not follow the path others tell you to follow. Stand still. Do not be distracted. Make up your own mind and do what is right. Do what is needed.

5 stars because just the title made feel like i might can help. Going to read your intro now.

i keep forgetting that there must be some really
bizarre shit going on in this World.

I thought I was going to die. I was finalizing things. Didn't think I would wake up. With all my strength I bought another house and moved in the middle of the night. Healed up there with IVs 2-3 times a week and phos choline which sticks to the poison and flushes it out of the body. Expensive. Took me 2.5 years to recover.

I was blindsided. Abusers isolate their targets, gaslighting by making the target seem crazy. Sociopath murderers are so good at lying that people believe them, it's difficult to challenge their credibility.

My murder's motive was money. He was a longtime drug addict andgambler, full time NPD, mooched off of me for years. I think he killed my mother too. No proof. I won't feel safe on earth until he dies.

Sounds a little like advice I would give.

wow.
Threatening to sue, red flag. Any good person would be open and honest and not threatening.

Glad you got out. Hell of a story!

Drugs will motivate people to do some pretty screwed up things. It doesn't help when they already had the mentality to do them in the first place.

There has to be some proof of what he did to your mother. Maybe not court-worthy proof, but something that keyed you into it.

I hear you.
PTSD triggers for me are any actions by others that resemble the murderers actions. My brain goes into alert and then insomnia and flight or fight response rears up. A long drive usually helps me.

Weird thing in my case, the psych I was seeing died, freak accident (supposedly), he was cutting a tree in his yard and it fell on him. He was pinned under it for 4 hours out in the country. Some day I'll talk to a detective and find out if there was foul play.

Heal your inner child. Use Maslows and go through the steps you were not given as a child. Allow yourself to express your feelings, feed your passions, give that child everything that others didn't.

Find her wherever she is and blow her head off with a colt 45

no proof. When I realized that there is no safety net for these things it changed my life. We are on our own.

I always thought the murderers were predators. They are not. They are scavengers.

Yeah ok baba rum dumb but?.....that is not even in the ballpark of the topic and people like us tell people stuff like that from a personal basis, not a book? Its like you had a lewellyn press meltdown and this mind is not even in your world? That part is fine.
we can't live on sugar mountain (if for polar opposite reasons,) and yes? We both thought we were being drug from there too soon.
We have a sugar hidden inside we keep tho.

People with psychopathic tendencies trigger mine still. They could be your garden variety fairly-harmless-if-you-step-carefully low IQ type and I will still flat refuse to do any business with them because I am just so freaking worn out on dealing with that type and I'm worried I'll take an axe to them in retaliation for being strung into some of their dumb-ass exploitation attempts.

That shrink death is a little concerning

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They are, indeed.