Sometimes you need to stop micro dosing and just overdose on the Holy Ghost

There's no amount of evil anyone has done that has caught Jesus by surprise, caught him off guard, shocked him, or is too terrible for him to hear you confess. He already knows your sins, so when you confess them to him, no matter how hard it is to say, to admit to the pure God, wholly innocent and loving, blameless and faultless lover of your soul and those who you wronged, he doesn't discard you, he is grateful, he's glad, he's like, "Thank you", for acknowledging him and his law and will and your own faults for transgressing. He doesn't condemn and shun, but accepts you back. The harsh reality is that maybe the person or people you've killed can't be saved, but you can be, and Jesus will take what he can get, and would rather not lose another, you, and especially when you come to your senses. Don't make people better than Jesus, no one can outshine his love and mercy. No one is your hope and Savior but him. He wants to and will love you away from your sins if you stop condemning yourself and let him. This isn't a competition, this is about your own personal relationship with getting to know Jesus the God who made you, the Father who guides you, the friend who is always with you, the Doctor that heals you, the ear that hears you, the heart that loves you, the arm that comforts you, the Teacher who answers you. It is his duty and honor to destroy evil, but until then he is waiting for you to respond to the call of developing a loving relationship with him and perservering through every thought and feeling and emotion and barrier that would try to hinder you from knowing him, yourself, your place in him and his place in you.

There is no path of sin, no course of action so terrible that he will not accept you as you are and then love you until you know and feel it.

Jesus blesses you, Jesus loves you, and I hope that you know it and I hope that you feel it and I hope that you know that he is God.

Let's be real, some people are so hardended, and so hard on themselves that confessing, "Alright, Jesus, I'm a piece of shit, now what?" just might be the beginning of their praying, confession, friendship, and communion with him. Don't be fooled by those who are pious outwardly, there are many people who Jesus would rather be around for being sincere and real than even a crowd putting on a pretense of righteousness. Be real with him and he will be real with you and show you many things. Keep talking to him trying to figure everything out while communing with him and he will guide you into all truth.