The Eye of Providence

i can do so much.. yet it seems so little.. frustration follows.. at the thought of losing one.. for i will answer for it.. is it my responsibility?.. ive taken it.. for some.. proof they demand.. and ive stayed my hand.. for fear of losing more.. to the gain of one.. the abilities i have.. are not to be used willy nilly.. a resposibility i have.. to the question posed to them.. wh do they have faith?.. i dont want it said.. because of a miricle.. from some guy online..

Sounds a little like a certain sack-clothed fellow I once spoke to in a dream.

Nowadays, the energy is never wasted. I saw the error of my wasted energy in a past exchange, perhaps with another group. But, I learned that what I thought was wasted energy, ended up in one of my greatest realizations.

It all works out if it can be directed in the proper manner.

Feels good, as I am at peace with myself, so I am at peace with others.

What initiated my awakening was my deep love for GOD,and letting everything else fall away,everything I had known as truth from religious doctrine I had been fed since childhood. It just did'nt sit right with me. I saw through it,and the errors. I could no longer live a lie. So one afternoon,I wen't to GOD in prayer,and made a heartfelt promise in tears that I was leaving everthing I had been taught by my religion. I wanted GOD to teach me. That is when I heard the beast within me walk out mad and slam a door really hard!!

That is when everything in my life opened,I heard the knock on the door of my subconscious,and I opened up for GOD. That same night the White Horse and Rider,with the other angels riding with him came in a dream through a wormhole in heaven. They told me they were happy with my decision,and that i was very loved.

That is when I could hear GOD speak within me,guiding me with dreams and visions and words and phrases that would speak to me within. I would serch out the meanings which opened up many things. I saw this puzzle being put together,and I put in my last piece.

you speak truth cosmic brother. and there is such a sublime beauty to behold of a future when so many beings from all corners of the universe will share this place, being restricted not by the dense form to reveal their true essence in all its splendor. exchanges like this draw that future one step closer.

as for the hardships of men, this comes to mind:

"We are all around you. We clamor here. There is something we need from you. But we don’t know how to ask. You must sort it out for us. We only know to come here and gather around you and search out your goodness for us.
We most prefer you when you cast off your human guise of being so busy and knowing what you’re doing, in order to join us in the process of divesting ourselves of everything that still is in our way. We can use you best when you are stripped to meet us, plain, straightforward, just here for what comes each time.
We need you to be clear. You are the man. We need you to not be attached, not be anxious, not be tangled up like we are. We must have your best now. For there are too many of us and not enough of you.
We need all the help we can get. You hold a focus and you stay on it. We can only distract you. Yet it is our job, all of us, to give you a hard time, more than you can handle. For we have to be sure that you’re really here with us.
Yes, we are fully aware that you do not carry extraordinary virtues. We’re not accusing you of being a genius. We are imploring you to give us your best effort every time and that is all.
For we, your fate, your companions, we know you so well. You were that shepherd who got us to this point in the first place. And we know you will be here to take it further every time. That’s who you are.
We do make one extra special request. Do not deny what we say. Do not shrug off, throw off, make such light of what it does for all of us when you stay on the beam. So let us take you away from what you want to do and let us restore you to the recognition that you are carrying a very great treasure. And if you give it away to each one of us so easily, that shows us how true this treasure is in life. "

Your demeanor has become as I remember, as our correspondence was, to what it used to be, to harsh words for realization, to now.

Is it that I am stubborn? Is it that I wait until the last minute? Is it because I am not following a path wanted for me? Is it because I am following a path but pushes are needed for realization?

The level above is clearer, is it not? Seems so simple from above, I imagine. So difficult from below though. Is it this choice that will lead to that? Or that choice that leads to this? From the same level the answers are not black and white, and never were. From a higher level of perception, the perception of the answers are black and white, I imagine. But, in truth, they are blended gradients effecting change on the now, creating altered visions of the 'to be'.

"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in, broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, WOW, What a ride!"

We have an eternity to get it right. When that concept is understood, black and white alters perception.

take the quote in the previous post of my id as a special dedication brother...the duty of the soul is to always love the soul...for the soul bears already enough of the mistakes of its mortal companion...redemption always come through the soul who is able to forgive his lesser fleshly brother...and let him rest in peace

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What do you make of having a NDE in a lucid dream??

As it does for everything, and everytime. What to do? Embrace it. To deny it is silly, as tomorrow always awaits.

lol, I got all poetic and stuff.

Which time are you referencing?

please forgive me.. i can be hard.. whats my greatest fear?.. losing you.. and many have fallen into this mode.. i regret it.. for you are kind.. and searching.. is it really over?.. have i done enough?.. i question that.. at the idea of losing you.. in these times.. yet i have faith.. at a time unknown to me.. you will find.. what im affraid you lost.. its not up to me.. reality sets in.. and i hope to see you.. in that time.. and something comforts me.. i will..

You've experienced this? It happened to me for the first time last night. It was rather disconcerting. All I've thought about all day...it was also the first lucid dream that I wasn't myself in..

Dammit.

Of course it's easy to give it away. It is no one's anyway. It never is, though perception of it may be.

Why must companions implore of another? It implies than one is being left out of information, does it not?

Honestly, there is nothing to forgive. I have told you that over and over trying to get you to understand that.

You are making 100% sure of things, aren't you? Not sure yourselves, you push over and over to try and make sure. As I said, the gradients are deceptive to black and white, and that is not acceptable as a conclusion of tomorrow. Faith is a fickle fuck, isn't it? Welcome to my world.

Yes. It has not been an isolated event for me. And, I will not disclose those events. It has nothing to do with here nor there.

i am guilty of many things.. and i alone will face them.. one i am not worried to face.. that i didnt try.. and did not become.. or do.. what i can.. to prove it.. tempted i have been.. but i can face God.. knowing.. and recieve..

Sorry. Wasn't trying to derail your thread. I don't feel I can share either as words aren't adaquate anyway for the most part. It was just a first for me, scared me quite a bit actually. Thanks for answering.

Good. Then you 100% realize that you need no forgiveness from another, only from yourself.

As humans we naturally fear the unknown. It is when you begin realizing the eternity of the soul, that the fear is able to reside, and eventually be left by the wayside.

LMAO! Don't worry about derailing the thread. That had been achieved a few pages ago.

personally, im diggin the thread, I find much symbolism is synchronicity with my life as I hear in the tone of many on this page.

the eye of providence see all.

;)

Of course it does. Indra's Net is everywhere and nowhere at the same time as no time.

And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire. Mathew 18:9

interesting response.

bumpity bump

i like to see it in reference to the inner kingdom. for who is that who forgives, that who judges, or that who sins, if not greater and lesser brothers merged within. so in reference to the infinite wisdom of the soul, the ego/mind is necessarily left out of information.

and as souls substance transcends even thought, it is inside and outside, syncronicity being just a way the souls awakes to its reality

or convergence to a greater simplicity :)

forgiveness is not given neither from your self nor from another's, but through the power of the Soul

and when asked from outside, from the soul's perspective it just means an invitation

to pray together for the rebirth of the world, through mutual redemption of all lesser brothers inside the kingdoms that were alloted to us.



Last Edited by VenusRose on 04/02/2013 04:58 PM