I give up.

3. 2 Peter 3:1-18:1 Dear friends, this is now my second letter to you. I have written both of them as reminders to stimulate you to wholesome thinking. 2 I want you to recall the words spoken in the past by the holy prophets and the command given by our Lord and Savior through your apostles. 3 First of all, you must understand that in the last days scoffers will come, scoffing and following their own evil desires. 4 They will say, "Where is this 'coming' he promised? Ever since our fathers died, everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation." 5 But they deliberately forget that long ago by God's word the heavens existed and the earth was formed out of water and by water. 6 By these waters also the world of that time was deluged and destroyed. 7 By the same word the present heavens and earth are reserved for fire, being kept for the day of judgment and destruction of ungodly men. 8 But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. 9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. 10 But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare. 11 Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives 12 as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming. That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. 13 But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness. 14 So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. 15 Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. 16 He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction. 17 Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position. 18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

Thank you for the understanding. I go through small phases of wanting to wake others up and then other times where I just won't say anything and keep to myself. For the most part nowadays I keep to myself and humor people with truth spoken in jest... But sometimes i just get really antsy and say a bunch of stuff.

Yeah definitely thought waking up would be my freedom. Lol! It felt so beautiful at first when I understood how everything is connected. And now I suppose I'm going through the mud of a dark night. It happens... I deal with it ok most days, but sometimes I just need to get this out.

I can relate to so much that you're saying. I think you have a great heart and this worlds vibration is very heavy, so of course it's pressing on you. Venting can help and don't give up. Ask your higher self to help you integrate all parts of yourself. Listen within. As long as you can silence all the distractions and connect to that Source, you will know what to do. A lot of us are going through the same heavy stuff, but we knew we could do it before the veil dropped. I think we can make it. Love you all.

I just remembered something else...

There have been some random occasions where I noticed people seem to look right through me... As if I'm not even there.

Other times I will notice someone behind me staring at me and I'll turn and look because I can feel their gaze on me. Almost like they're looking deep into my soul with a semi disgusted tranced - out look on their face.

You know Op......
I have felt the same way for awhile. I can see we feel and are experiencing the same thing. It is hard to pin down just "what isn't right"!
The way I explain it is that I have become VERY VERY AWARE that I am being lied to! On a small everyday level all the way up to a national/international level.
I keep telling myself and my family I just want to know the truth!
TRUTH!! That is something that is sooo hard to come by these days.

This just might be the worst thing. It's by everyone and everything...including my family and it's been my entire life. I only discovered it about 6 years ago and it's been a process to adjust to the fact that I know they've all been lying. What's worse is that they continue to do so.

Expectations of others is the step-mother of disappointment.

Actions are stronger than any words, and the only people we can ever convince of anything is ourselves.

Simply living your own truth is the best that can be done for anyone else.

Thank you.

You know what, I apologize for being bluntly honest and the last thing I want to do is to chase someone back into their slumber. If it helps you to transition into this hell then I should give the space to do that.

I'm just a bit of a sociopath so I tend to lack remorse for others feelings. By all means take whatever necessary steps you need to but this really is the end goal.

Thank you. Sometimes I forget that. It is a learning process...

For some reason my member id changed while I'm not using a proxy or anything. How odd.

It's ok. I can be bluntly honest too sometimes even though I feel deeply. Hence my frustration. That's weird about the id change...

I am seeing a lot more people are aware of what's happening, they just won't acknowledge what's going on in a normal group setting. Kind of surprised at some things I am hearing from others (well off, smart people). I think to myself and I am called the loon? Scary times await. I may have mentioned before, but I now know multiple people building self sustaining living areas in the middle of nowhere. Always comes up when I ask if they follow precious metals.

At the very least you have this interesting forum with many like minded people.

Damn I can sure relate to what you are going through and most of the gems in this thread. The invisibility, the wanting to go back to sleep, all of it. What a painful process this is. Is there any solace? A question for those past this part of the process that we find ourselves in....