Have you always felt damned by God? I have

I feel angry within when people tell me to turn to Jesus. I feel like all that stuff failed me TBH. The way I see it, I was Christened into the Christian faith as a kid, but no God provided me with the protection I needed from my vile, violent drunk dad who screwed up my mind / life all the way into adulthood.

In fact, I was pretty much a Christian 'do gooder' for most of my life, but I just got walked all over because I was taught to turn the other cheek. Again, no God provided me with any protection when all the Devils were wreaking havoc upon me.

Everyone is blessed in some areas and damed in others.

I understand. I had a violent, drunk dad too.

I had to forgive him for he knew not what he was doing. Alcohol destroyed his life.

I made the decision NOT to allow his issues to destroy my Life.

The Holy Spirit convicted me of my own sin and unforgiveness. I received Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, prayed and studied the Word of God.

One of the most difficult things was to come to know God as Father, the TRUE Father because all I knew was my ANGRY, abusive earthly Father.

It took 2+ years of wrestling with God to finally repent with Godly sorrow, submit and come to know Him as The Loving Father that HE truly is. A relationship with The Father through His Son, Jesus Christ, and be filled with The Holy Spirit.

Please know that I am praying for you. May The Healing Power of Jesus heal your heart. May you repent, cross over in to the spiritual realm, with thirst for The Word of God and seek Him with your whole heart.
Blessings
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Yeh, I do get that, it could be a far, far worse fate, but I just wish this inner feeling of damnation would disappear. I wouldn't give a shit if I was dirt poor, so long as my soul felt at peace.

You fight it by working on something
Get buissy, you attack it this way.
You have the power
Im not even out of bed yet, but i know i have to do the dishes today
Then maybe later i have a project some stairs need sanding.
Im reeeely fighting my lazy ass lol

Last Edited by Mkitrik on 09/27/2018 04:27 AM

Just follow your spirit like Christ taught about the narrow way. Deny and detach from the world, ego, materialism, pride, and prepare to shed from your societal imposed identity and fight your inner demons. Allow your inner light to cleanse and purify you in order for you to return back to source and love.

Last Edited by ten10 on 09/27/2018 04:27 AM

The effect of a father wound is low self-esteem, a deep emotional pain inside and a performance orientation that makes us "doers" rather than "beings."

While salvation makes us new creations in Christ, it does not necessarily address the deep wounds inside.

We tend to have four barriers that inhibit the healing of this wound:

Pride – No will to confront or change, "I’m alright"
Sin – A blocked will that neither seeks to confess sin or receive forgiveness
The wound itself – Continuous emotional hurt inside
Lies – Misconceptions about ourselves, our birth father and Father God.

Instead of going to the pain and receiving the healing we need, we tend to respond to life events by creating a misconception about our "self."

As long as we accept the nasty words that were spoken to us in childhood as truth, we will experience depressed, anxious and angry lives.

Often a person’s image of God the Father is contaminated by the personal experience he or she has with their earthly father.

When misconceptions about God are present (i.e. that He is angry, judgmental, unhappy with me, fearsome, legalistic, quick to punish and slow to forgive).

As you understand the truth about God’s Love and come to know your true self in Christ, it will free you to let go of the pain and forgive your birth father.

This new perspective created in you will now enable you to see your birth father through different eyes, and allow you to live in freedom.
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Last Edited by Kiss_Your_Illusions_Goodbye on 09/27/2018 04:38 AM

no....
of course not.
which god do you refer?



I was taught to consider all others before myself, and that their needs were more important first, growing up, than my own.
My earliest understanding in understanding.

later It set me up to became an easy target for bullies and snide harmful friendships because I wasn't the loudest or the pushiest nor most dominant in our friendship groups.
But I wasn't the least intelligent.

We bumped into people over the years who were religious, not too many though.
Their conversation skills lack depth and volume mostly, and they are very boring, or can be, like gossip groups and some social circles.

plastic talk.

People marching their kids around the streets in defiance of children being allowed to have 'childhoods', gets on my nerves...their 'damaged' parents and grandparents are the most selfish stupid creatures, in my opinion...it's ugly, and they are just puppets of a pulpit somewhere...and who the fuck is that?

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For most of them realize it not
the strings of puppetry attached to their sleeves
and their burnt fingertips

Accept Jesus Christ as God and your Lord and Savior. Even if you have a terrible life you'll still have a chance at saving your soul.

Isaiah 66:5 Hear the word of the LORD, ye that tremble at his word; Your brethren that hated you, that cast you out for my name's sake, said, Let the LORD be glorified: but he shall appear to your joy, and they shall be ashamed.

Romans 10:11 For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed.

Purify yourself in all ways and that feeling will vanish. You are battling a wolf of evil. It holds sway on your shoulders. Replace him. And trust with a fresh start in the reward of listening. Should it harm another or yourself you can cast it aside. But should it love and comfort then you will know to allow it to walk with you.

The lord is your shepherd. But so is satan. It's up to you to choose which you allow in to guide you. And should one wraggle power for a moment that should not. Then go back to the feeling of nothing till balance returns.

There is no difference between jedi and sith. Other than emotional overload (energy & irrationality). Which is why love leads to the dark side.

Last Edited by Last-Sam-U-Why on 09/27/2018 05:09 AM

Interesting you mention this because I checked out some websites which said the same thing -- relationship you had with your dad shapes your relationship with God. Regardless, though, no God ever spared me from the misery that man brought into my life. I became psychotic due to the abuse in my mid teens. I tried to reason with him time and again, but if I dared question him on his behaviour he'd threaten to beat the shit out of me. Because the mature approach failed, I got sick of him always bullying me, my siblings and my mother, and one day I snapped and brutalized him which resulted in him going to hospital with severe injuries. I thought he'd have learned his lesson, but he couldn't take no longer being able to control and scare people, so it made him more defiant, which resulted in me giving him repeated beatings. His wickedness affected the entire family, and all of my sisters are with abusive men, not to mention all suffer anxiety, depression and drug issues. This is why I just cannot forgive the sack of shit, despite him dying 10 years ago.

Well I would suggest that you read and heed my signature the second paragraph but it seems that your faith has been extinguished in Jesus... but at least you still believe in God. Give Jesus another chance, say the prayer and ask him exactly what you want to be delivered from (this feeling). And how about being delivered from the oppressive feeling only if it has been rendered a lie by the saving grace and mercy of God Jesus?

You are allowing his issues to control who you are. Even though he is passed away, by focusing on the pain of the experience rather than healing, it is controlling you and other members of your family.

I know it is hard to forgive. Forgiveness is not for his benefit, it is for your benefit so that you can heal and move forward.

As you heal from this horrible experience, you will be able to reach out to help others get through it and that will honor and glorify God, the true Father.
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Yep, you're condemned:

St. Matthew 6:14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
St. Matthew 6:15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

It's right you should feel so until you can learn the wisdom and knowledge to forgive a dead man, even living men. You cannot even be forgiven by God Jesus right NOW no matter how much you ask him to until you forgive everyone. Unless you forgive you will not pass God's judgment.

If you fear Jesus then you will trust his words and if you trust his words you will ask him to help you forgive.

I vaguely recall feeling alienated from God until the point when it was revealed to me who God is, that after reading the new testament and believing Jesus Christ the Son of God.

Yeh, but why forgive someone who has never shown any remorse for what they've done? It makes no sense. If someone just raped and murdered your mother, then laughed in your face, would you REALLY forgive them? Cmon now. It might tell you to do this in the bible, but the reality is you're not gonna do that.

the remedy for this is simple
do you have food, a bed to sleep in?
turn your thinking to the good in your life, it's there you are just focused on the bad
once you become thankful it just gets better and better

Just curious, OP. What are your expectations from God?

Well, we were made to say the 'our father' prayer each day at school, and the ending of that prayer is 'deliver us from evil'. No God delivered me from evil, so that was all pointless shit.

God does not damn anybody. IF YOU HAVE a FRAGMENT of the Father.. he may put you thru learning experiences to grow you UP!!! Take heed .

Your ass cannot be forever cursed. If you have chosen AGAINST the LIFE ETERNAL.. you will cease to exist when your meat suit ass dies.. its that simple.

I know how you feel. I was there too. The good news is that voice that is telling you that you are damned is your ego, and its not real. You are not damned, you never were, and you are here for no other purpose than to be a vehicle/temple for the spirit (ie. consciousness) that resides within your body. You are here to see, hear, feel, smell, and touch. The information you take in is returned to the source (think collective consciousness) along with the spirit that resided in your body once that vehicle ceases to work.

Life"s a good show. You don't have to ask an apple tree why it apples, it just does it on its own accord. You don't have to worry about human emotions and misgivings, because that's just what humans do. It will all be fine, my friend. Smile, breathe, relax and enjoy the story. It is the greatest one ever told. Namaste.

He's not real, so no.

Feeling damned or blessed by God is a per SD onal choice.
If God is everything that means you are PART OF God. The message or prayer you send to God as a whole is the way you feel about yourself. If you don't feel like you deserve to be blessed by God you won't be.

"The most important decision one can make is deciding whether the universe is a friendly place or not"
-Albert Einstein

It's just a choice. Make a decision.

Your dad was lost. Your dad probably repeated experiences he went through in his childhood. The only one that has damned you is yourself. You continue to be a victim and blame God, your dad, for all your woes, when it has been you. When you were a child and helpless, you were a victim, but now you're an adult, it's time to step up and take responsibility for your life, your mind, your spirit. Forgiveness is the key,...of God, your dad, yourself, and others. You are being shown something that you have yet to see, but when you do, if you ever do- see, you will marvel and be amazed of the gain and the richness that you have received from it all. My prayer for you is for you to gain wisdom and understanding.

Op, consider this... You are not the only person on this planet who had a shitty birth father. Many of us did and experienced all kinds of abuses. Just like you, many have suffered from it to the point of utter chaos. But many also did extremely well and learned to forgive and move on to better things. Don't you think it's time to take a step in the right direction? Use what you've learned not to do, to help those who are suffering now. In some way. Let go of everything. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and just laugh. This shit you're feeling now was done to you and others intentionally by tptb who worship strange gods/Satan.

Stop watching TV. You are full of internal conflict.

OP, I didn't read through the entire thread, but I want to address your first post. If you really feel that way, that you've commited some grave sin that brought you to suffer in this lifetime and makes you feel distant from God, you need to take responsibility for those sins, even if you don't know what they are, and ask for forgiveness and guidance to become better than the actions that brought you to this place. Be honest, humble and patient. God doesn't usually work instantaneously. Sometimes it takes a great deal of time to see that your path has been altered. Hang in there and don't give up.