I have grown weary...

All I have to say is life is simply amazing.
Everyday is different and in it a new experience to be had.

Eg. Looking down the street between the rows of half barren trees and homes was a bright faceted array of colors jetting from the ground stretching high into the darkened sky. A huge bright rainbow startled me with its beauty.


I also know life can feel like a drag. Trick is to change your perception of reality occasionally.
If you want to stay natural 5-htp before bed will make you dream or make your dreams more vivid; seeming like you have an actual experience in them.
Ayahuasca a hallucinogenic concoction will place warm waves of energy over your body making you feel like you are one with everything; will make you look at life completely different afterwards as well. (not negative)
Kratom does wonders; relaxes you, makes you more talkative and makes you feel a lot happier.
LSD,Mushrooms,K and other hallucinogens/dissociates can also put changing dints on your perception after the experience but to each their own...
By all means dont drink alcohol it will only make things worse.

Thank you for uplifting...

This is the problem though, there is so much beauty...I don't want to live....does this make sense to anyone else?

always know where your towel is

I KNOW RIGHT???? It's like we are living 'Groundhog Day' in reality! It SUCKS!!!!

The beauty you see, please share it so that other may be inspired
We need to appreciate and share those subtleties which matters so deeply
The beauty you see and share is an inspiration for your fellow
It's tough at times here
Yet when we focus on that what makes it all worth it
We grow, together
Your heart is open and it's a true gift, and to see that beauty you sometimes need to cut through some pain sadness or whatever
But it's ok
Just share that too, is what we're here for

Pep up OP...the shit's just getting started! Take up a hobby. Preferably one that can sustain you when the rest of the sheeple lose their minds.

Yes it makes sense to me
That pain that comes from seeing all that beauty
Feeling it deep
In all your being
The pain to be alone with that
No one seem to care
Minding their own business
Where to go
Where to share
The wish to leave, pushing
A feeling of not belonging
Not making sense
But believe me
There are those who need to feel your beauty, shared
There are a reason of why you're here
Just hold on
And walk step by step
Understanding grows with acceptance

Thanks for your posts....most of the time the beauty of life is too much for me, it is just too beautiful.

My perception of reality...I live in my own world, because our planet, our beautiful world, is infested with things that kill the beauty, and kill me, if I am apart of it....therefore I have to create my own separate realities.

They way things are: There is so much beauty, but at the same time there is not.

I really can't do it anymore.

I don't understand how anyone is.

I bet if someone attempted to kill you ... then you would do everything you could to continue living.

for all the shit to come, even a lot of good and intelligent people are going to lose their mind, stop calling them sheeple, they are our fellow humans - we can't be a bunch of arrogant assholes to one another

That is the plan. Demoralize you so that you give up and just go away and let them take it without any more fighting.

sometimes I wish I could wake up from all of this, to a reality with meaning to it all, a point to it all. guess we have to make our own meaning and endure, but why?

sometimes I wish I could wake up from all of this, to a reality with meaning to it all, a point to it all. guess we have to make our own meaning and endure, but why?

“Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels'
hierarchies? and even if one of them
pressed me against his heart: I would be consumed
in that overwhelming existence. For beauty is nothing
but the beginning of terror, which we still are just able to endure,
and we are are so awed because it serenely disdains
to annihilate us. Every angel is terrifying.."

- Rainer Maria Rilke

I attempt to kill myself everyday, yet I do everything I can, so that I can continue living one more day.

So, I would say that is the problem at hand....makes me weary.

...Maybe, so we can keep dreaming.....

But why would we want to keep dreaming?

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May be we should all die

I took up extreme sports. I figure one of these years I'll die on a snowmobile.

We can start dreaming a new dream for ourselves & humanity. I know I think frequently these days about the kind of world I want to live in. It helps me on those days when I loose hope.

I hope you will enjoy this vid except for the annoying statement every other minute about it being a HD vid. I have been to these 2 places & it made me homesick to go there again. I hope it will take you on a tranquil, relaxing journey. Enjoy.

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go on a road trip... on my 8th year

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"Those who love their life in this world will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life." - John 12:25